**~~Weekly Chit Chat~~** June 20-26 - Page 2

[pixiekisses]

I'm not sick yet, and I'm 7+1. I'm just really, really tired.

Went to my GP today to get everything started, high-risk pregnancy, so there was a lot of paperwork, referrals, requisitions etc. But now it's all done, and that is a relief. And my BP is good, so we're very happy about that!

[finnegansmom]

I feel so gross today. I forced down 1/2 cup of half caff coffee to take the edge of the pounding headache and ate some toast. I felt better as I ate the toast but now I feel gross again. I guess it's nauseau but just an overall gross feeling...bloated and blah.
Oh and it's beautiful here today, 85, sunny, perfect and of course I'm stuck home working (I work from home doing project management/editing/proofing) and my husband (who is in grad school now) got to take the boys to the beach. Boooooooooo.

Work stinks. I wish I could go back to bed.

pixie, I'm tired too....i've been going to bed by 9pm and can barely drag myself out of bed at 7am...

[Tresa]

Today has to get better from here...

Had dreams last night where there was an infant whose mom left him and he was crawling around and crying, and I couldn't do anything about feeding him (breastefeeding is the only option in my dreams, I guess). Then in a later dream, I lost the baby I'm carrying now but understood it was all part of the divine plan so I could star in a musical where I would be a singing mermaid (and the play was months away and I couldn't be pregnant in a mermaid costume, nor could I have the mental energy required to memorize lines to be in this play...especially since I am not a theater person at all, it would be like me trying to take calculus). Woke up, relieved not to be bleeding, and my son asked for pancakes for breakfast, we were out of ones I had in the freezer so I made a new batch...still half asleep, with no caffiene.

Fiance is sick, doing that man sighy whiney thing everytime he coughs. I make him breakfast, he comes out and wants a kiss to thank me for making food for him...ew, while I'm eating. Gross, get away. He always does that, I've got to stop it soon. Especially since eating is so pleasurable for me and by doing that he A) interrupts my eating, and B) just, ew. Wet cool lips, gross, man, I'm eating here!

Am I certifiably insane yet?

Then the other man in my life, my 4y/o, finds me the instant my bottom hits the chair by the computer after I've finally fed everyone and sit down to eat, myself, while I read emails (and catch up here), and he's asking for his turn. Wont' leave the room, is hovering. Is chatting me up, totally ignoring my requests for a few minutes of quiet time while I read and eat, chat chat chat...gab, gab, gab...who can concentrate with all this?!!!!

And I'm having weird cramps, especially cervical sharp shooting ones. Kind of feels like period cramps. Maybe my dreams were premonitions? If they were, I hope it goes ahead and does its thing so I can have a drink tonight.

GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!

Today will get better from here. Or I'm going to go hide in a cave.

Thanks for listening/reading. Bah.

[burg]

I have my ultrasound tomorrow, I can't wait!! I have been getting the most sick at night when I want to go to bed it is the worst but I'll take it. The humidity luckily has not been too too bad @ night but it is only a matter of time. The bean & I will be hiding out in the AC soon, I think.

[Jenne]

I agree, today has to get better! I woke up to go to work (love my job!) and felt awful so I rescheduled. I thought I'd lay back down with DH (he works nights) and dreamed I had had a miscarriage, that I was getting married but didn't really want to and while people got ready for pictures I tried to talk to my Dad about not wanting to get married (we were in the elevator alone) but the elevator was moving too quickly like it was crashing, and about food. The reason I lost the baby in the dream was that I didn't eat/drink enough. I had many, many dreams about food. I was so hungry when I woke up I was light headed but at least the nausea had passed.

I have so much work I need to do but no motivation. Watching Star Trek:TNG and surfing the web...trying to decide what to eat next. The rice krispies with banana and milk didn't last long...just so tired...

Jenne

[trekkingirl]

I had a panic attack at work and got sent home! My day has got to get better! I don't see how it could be any worse. Lately I have really been feeling like I just don't belong in the work world. What happened today just makes me feel that way even more. I have never had a panic attack before. It was really scary. A supervisor overheard me talking with a coworker. He of course assumed we were talking about our company but we were actually talking about her boyfriends company. I totally kept my cool while talking to him but instead of apologizing for eavesdropping he sent me to the head boss. As I started talking to her my whole body got really tingly and all the sudden I couldn't breathe. It was totally crazy. I've never felt that way before. Me and the other girl explained ourselves to my boss as I was feeling dizzy and shakey. She understood and said no biggie. The other girl went away just fine but I had a total melt down. I started hyperventilating and sobbing uncontrolably. Of course everyone kept asking me what was wrong so I am trying to explain while trying to catch my breath. Didn't work very well. My boss said I was making a big deal out of nothing and I should just let it go. It's kind of hard not to replay stuff when people keep asking you what happened. I got sent home! I had to come home and explain myself to my dh. He gave me a hug but I could tell that he wasn't that understanding. We really need my job and I'm sure what happened was a little scary for him. It was scary for me. I have no idea why or how that happened. Whats even worse is I have no idea how to prevent that from happening again. I really can't lose my job. I feel so anxious. This day has just got to get better.

[Tresa]

trekkingirl, I've had random waves of intense anxiety that I know could easily escalate into a panic attack if I didn't catch them and concentrate them away. What's up with that? I sometimes chalk it up to eating chemically laden food (food coloring, especially, does it for me, and MSG makes my heart race like nuts now that I'm pg).

Just wanted you to know there's someone else out there getting broadsided by anxiety since people around you are giving you the weirdo vibe.

My day is getting better. Ish. Definitely feel the pull of energy from the little growing one. I feel better now that my fiance left for the day. He's so all up in my face, like another kid. I know it's hormones and totally natural to despise, at times, your partner...he's not taking waves of irritation/hatred well.

[finnegansmom]

trekkingirl, I have lots of anxiety too. Actually I was diagnosed with GAD a while back but went off of meds when i was pregnant with #1 and never went back on. I'm going to say that I will be going on them again once we're done with kids. I'm not a med kind of person but the difference to me was striking.

I hope you're feeling better, work and the whole environment can be such a trigger. Being pregnant doesn't help either. I've been pretty stressed about this pregnancy....to the point of full on anxiety attack. Not fun.

Tresa - I totally agree about the despise. I get so annoyed so easily....I'd rather take it out of my dh than my kids though, so he gets the brunt of it. He can deal, he's been through it before.... i doubt he even listens to me anyways.

[nintendork]

I had very severe anxiety problems through high school and much of college, my stomach would always get upset first and it would usually end in a panic attack. Are you having any morning sickness or indigestion that could be triggering your anxiety as well as work?

[trekkingirl]

well I've spent most of the afternoon trying to figure out a WAHM situation. I was thinking if I could work from home I might avoid panic attacks. And yes Nintendork, I had neusea all morning before all this went down. Work has always been my trigger, but today was monumental, or just mental. I've never been sent home before. I'm usually just over emotional occasionally. Today was my first panic attack. It was like I could feel all the oxygen leaving my limbs through my blood stream. Like when your foot falls asleep, but all of my whole limbs. Then I felt like I was being held under water. Really terrifying. I was thinking about talking with my doctor about this, but I really don't want to be labeled with any mental health stuff. I hope to foster after this baby hits toddlerhood and I don't know what kind of checks they do. I looked through the WAHM well. It's all overwhelming. It's been an overwhelming day. I think I just need to chill for a bit. At least I didn't get fired.

[nintendork]

For me, when I felt a panic attack coming on, taking a short walk, deep breathing, a little alone time (maybe in the bathroom), and chewing on hard candy or antacids seemed to help. Sorry you had such a hard day, I hope it was a one off.

[ombrooklyn]

I just really don't feel pregnant yet.....

[nintendork]

Originally Posted by ombrooklyn

I just really don't feel pregnant yet.....

How far along are you? We tried for almost 6 months and when I finally got a positive test it was like I was in denial. It is only now (7 weeks) beginning to feel real. Last night I looked at my husband and just said "Oh my god there's a baby in there" lol. This is our first baby and I think maybe I will really feel officially pregnant when I start to show.. although the morning sickness is also helping bring some reality to this experience.

[ombrooklyn]

Originally Posted by nintendork

How far along are you? We tried for almost 6 months and when I finally got a positive test it was like I was in denial. It is only now (7 weeks) beginning to feel real. Last night I looked at my husband and just said "Oh my god there's a baby in there" lol. This is our first baby and I think maybe I will really feel officially pregnant when I start to show.. although the morning sickness is also helping bring some reality to this experience.

um, just almost 5 wks I know, give it time... I think I'm just for some reason afraid of losing this one.

[Kailey's mom]

Hey everyone. I'm so ready to be, idk, ready to deliver!!! I forgot how long the days were when pregnant!

Trekkingirl: I just want to give you hugs. I am diagnosed with panic disorder. I've had it since 10/12/99. I really hope that these attacks are just being triggered by pregnancy. I can't lie, panic disorder is NOT fun. I do know the fear, and you are not alone If they get worse,or become more frequent, I would tell your doc. There are some things *medically* that can trigger panic ex: thyroid problems.

[iheartmyfamily]

om brooklyn - me too! i'm four weeks and four days today and i don't really feel pregnant. should i be worried? i am hungry all the time but that's pretty normal for me. lol. my boobs have not gotten bigger and they are not really too sore. i am not gassy or crampy or anything. last pregnancy, which was ectopic, i had all of these symptoms when my hcg was where it is at now. I hope everything is ok. i'm so scared. i have an early ultrasound on friday and i'll be exactly five weeks. my hcg should be at about 2000 and we should be able to see a sac. if i don't i will just be crushed.

my hcg is

3 weeks, 5 days 48.9
4 weeks 185
4 weeks 3 days 547

[ombrooklyn]

Originally Posted by iheartmyfamily

om brooklyn - me too! i'm four weeks and four days today and i don't really feel pregnant. should i be worried? i am hungry all the time but that's pretty normal for me. lol. my boobs have not gotten bigger and they are not really too sore. i am not gassy or crampy or anything. last pregnancy, which was ectopic, i had all of these symptoms when my hcg was where it is at now. I hope everything is ok. i'm so scared. i have an early ultrasound on friday and i'll be exactly five weeks. my hcg should be at about 2000 and we should be able to see a sac. if i don't i will just be crushed.

my hcg is

3 weeks, 5 days 48.9
4 weeks 185
4 weeks 3 days 547

I hope that early US goes well for you mama!!

[finnegansmom]

I felt great between 4-5 weeks! I didn't even know I was pregnant with #1 until I was 5 weeks.... I had no idea. You'll feel like crap soon enough...

Good luck on your U/s iheart! I'm sure it'll be great!

[Tresa]

Yay, my boobs are getting bigger, filling back in from their sad, sad state after nursing for 3.5 years straight and taking a year off. Super yay They are sensitive and are "only looking no touching" to my poor fiance, but wow, they're pretty!

Horribly wretched uncomfortable action going on in my lower abdomen. Growing something down there. Good pain, though, right?

Trying to explain to my fiance tonight why I can sit and talk and chat and love my girlfriends but him and any other man that comes around...my fangs come out. Hormones? Yes. But why??? I'm already knocked up, it seems counterintuitive to be so snarly to the provider. Especially when he provides lovely things like Taco Bell, delivered.

[Cujobunny]

Originally Posted by Tresa

Yay, my boobs are getting bigger, filling back in from their sad, sad state after nursing for 3.5 years straight and taking a year off. Super yay They are sensitive and are "only looking no touching" to my poor fiance, but wow, they're pretty!

My husband is looking forward to this too hasn't happened yet though, and after 5 yrs of nursing (with a 3 month break in there), they are looking pretty sad.

I called my midwife's office and got the same mw that delivered my dd, i'm happy about that, though it didn't really matter. 3rd one and all, I think I could do it myself now hehe. So I have my first appt July 12 and we will schedule the first u/s then, for the nuchal translucency test. Hopefully i will hear a heartbeat, I can't remember when that's first possible with the doppler? I'll be 9 wks then. And hopefully it will be only one heartbeat we keep joking that it will be just our luck that it will be twins, on our 3rd pregnancy - they run in my family & noone in my generation has had them yet