I just want to say that I am VERY proud of you for considerng this so carefully. In the end, you have to do what feels right to you. You are the one carrying the baby. Whatever you decide, know that I am there for you in spirit
What about hiring a midwife from another town?
Or what about having a friend act as your lay midwife? Do you have any friends that have been present at any births? Even just animal births? I know it's not ideal, but since you are in a tight spot, maybe something like that could work.
Take care and blessings
Also, I have a very good feeling about this upcoming birth. I really get the impression that you and the baby will be just fine, no matter what route you choose.
I (almost) had a UC. I transfered because my intuition told me to. DD's sholder got stuck very briefly, but I really doubt my DP could have done anything to fix it as he was sort of loopy from lack of sleep and the importance of it all by that point.
I did my pre-natal care at our local hospital, but planned to UC, as I said. We got to the hospital about 30 minutes before she was born. They didn't have time to do anything to me
DP caught our daughter, we went home asap.
It was very natural and although it wasn't what I wanted, I'm trying to come to peace with it. Anyway, PM me if you want more info
I think intuition is extremely important throughout pregnancy and birth. I went to the hospital one time while pregnant because I knew something had changed, and I was right. DD had flipped over! That was why I couldn't feel her kick, or find her heartbeat with our doppler. So, it was nothing bad, but I was right - something had changed. I also had the feeling throughout my pregnancy that I would 'end up' at the hospital (this was when we were trying to choose between a midwife or UC). Of course, I ended up being right about that, too