I've been out of touch for a while. We were in Boston, then Martha's Vineyard last week. Martha's Vineyard is beautiful, relaxing, rustic...and remote. The inn we stayed at is in a section of the island which has intermittent internet and no cell phone service (although weirdly, in some spots at the top of hills I could text...but no calls). It is really a throwback in many ways. They don't allow any franchise/chain stores on the island, so all the stores (except for two Stop n Shops in the 'major' towns) are old fashioned general stores, farm stands, specialized places, boutiques, and the ubiquitous Black Dog store empire (which is a chain...but it's a MV chain
It's so neat to wander into an old fashioned style general store and just browse. I LOVE that. The prices, I don't love so much. But we did manage to find some places to get good, fresh food that wasn't another pizza or fried fish sandwich. Next time I think we'll try and plan and bring more than just our meat with us (can't get kosher meat there at all...).
It was relaxing -- we did fun and no-stress things. Beach, crabbing (not for eating, just for fun), arboretum walk, hike up to Gay Head lighthouse on the cliffs of Aquinnah, browsing in Edgartown, hiking down to the beach for the sunset. A nice vacation. The Boston part was fun too. Dh did the Patriot 10K on the 4th, which began and ended in the stadium where the New England Patriots play. That was kind of nifty but he said the course was boring, and I felt like the setup really shortchanged the spectators because you had to sit in the stadium stands and couldn't really see the finishers up close. We couldn't see Matt finish and I love the part of road races where you cheer for your fave runner and all the others too. But the best part was I arranged to meet a dear college friend who was running (and who just survived breast cancer!
) and we spent the better part of the afternoon at their lovely home with our kids all playing together and hanging out with bagels and fruit. It was so nice.
Sorry for my vacation journal...but we did have a good time. We spent the rest of the day hanging out at the Boston Public Garden (home of Make Way for Ducklings) and took a swan boat ride, saw a re-enactment of a Revolutionary War battle on the Boston Common (and spoke to a "British soldier" about his 'life' etc.), then went to the Esplanade for the fireworks. We had arranged/reserved to go to the Community Boating family bbq area and it was great because we could go later in the evening and still get a nice spot, eat yummy veggie burgers and ice cream, and ... wait. The bummer was the concert/fireworks were really LATE and we didn't stay for the whole thing. It didn't used to be like that, I think they changed it for the sake of TV and not for the better. But it's always stirring to hear the Boston Pops play the 1812 Overture complete with cannons going off and fireworks at the finale.
I did get a few runs in on MV....man, I had no idea it was so HILLY there. Whew! I went out for 4 or 5 mile runs and ended up doing 3.5 painful hot, humid, hilly miles each time. Plus there are no shoulders on the roads and they have lots of blind curves so I felt plagued by adrenaline rushes also, quite death defying. Low mileage week.
I have so much to say personals-wise, but if I forget someone please forgive me.
Take time for personal space. I know when I feel overwhelmed and stressed it definitely takes a toll on my parenting too, and then I hate myself for it. I see the consequences especially in my oldest and she is now at an age of remembering things, and it kills me that I have wrought damage.
But we are all a work in progress and I do talk to her about it, apologize, and try to make amends together. It is not easy. I know I often feel like I am last on the list for everyone and the resentment and outright anxiety that comes with feeling desperate for someone to just give me a BREAK is debilitating. Take care.
JayGee...wow, can I ever commiserate on the moving/selling house stress. I have nothing positive to say about this as you know, and I dearly hope and pray your experience is NOTHING like mine has been. I will say that a year later, I am glad we made the move and I am happier for it. But it is a very difficult time and giving you
that it should go smoothly and as easily as possible.
CFG, wow that stinks about the Governator. Ditto in the stinks part to Poppy.
Now I forget everything else I was going to say.
I am desperate to find a decent physician who will LISTEN to me and spend time with me and not throw bc pills at me. I am having weird cycle issues (heavy clots passing, terrible cramps, excessive bleeding...but only for two days and then it goes away completely) that are debilitating while they happen. Plus my skin is awful, my stomach is weird, etc. Clearly there is something hormonal going on but I don't want to/can't be on bc and I need to find someone who will spend some time evaluating the whole me rather than just one piece at a time and only for six minutes at that. I know docs are under tremendous pressure to get you in and out quickly but I am so frustrated and upset by not being able to have my entire person addressed.
Off to take dh to the airport, he is going home. I follow in a couple weeks. Then it's back to reality...