Thank you for starting this thread/tribe, and thank you so much for sharing your own situation. I know how difficult it is and I hope you find all the support and help you need.
I am currently in treatment for a mood disorder, as well as for ED issues, which have been part of my life for almost ten years. Even so, it took many weeks for me to bring up my ED behavior in my therapy sessions. This is the first time, except for a brief period when I was a teenager, that I've been in treatment. I am a 25 year old married mother of one DS (2), and have been binging and purging since high school. I have been dieting since I was 8 or 9, and in high school I couldn't take it anymore and turned to bulimia/purging in order to "control" food (of course, I was really out of control) and lose weight. I am a chronic over-eater, and started purging after my binges, and then when I started to get really obsessed with weight loss, I purged after regular meals as well. I then started abusing diet pills. However, because I was getting thinner and receiving attention, I felt like ends justified the means. My body has still not recovered from the damage I did.
As an older teen/young adult, I ended up using alcohol to numb the guilt (I felt incredibly shallow and stupid all the time), and wound up in the hospital with near-fatal alcohol poisoning. Still, that wasn't enough of a low -- and though I was eventually able to stop the alcohol problem without professional help (that said, I recommend anyone out there dealing with an alcohol/drug dependence issue to seek out the help you deserve!), I haven't totally ever been able to stop the binge and purge compulsion.
While it's certainly nothing to be proud of, I know now that I eat because I have a hard time feeling/expressing emotions. I eat and eat as avoidance, and then I purge because I'm scared to gain more weight, plus purging tends to make me tired, so I can avoid dealing with myself even more that way. Anyway, that's the outline of my story. I would also like to add that I have an amazing DH, without whom I would likely not be in the treatment I now realize I so seriously need.