Hey mama! I lucked out and had my baby at the end of the Spring semester and don't have to go back until the work period right before the Fall semester SO I will end up with 4 months off total. I have to say that I am super paranoid that someone will call and tell me that they made a mistake and I'm not approved for that and I will have to return sooner than that.
I, too, have dreaded going back to work since the moment I had Wyatt. BUT I love my job; truly love it so that helps. With Evangeline, I felt so sad and depressed and did the requisite crying BUT by the end of the first week I felt good about working and being a mama. I needed perspective and time for sure.
Let yourself be sad for sure. AND it totally helps when you trust and care for your daycare provider. Ours is an old friend who I just adore and she loves our kids like they are her own.
Pumping for me is a nightmare b/c I travel between campuses all the time AND have no set schedule. I bought a new pump this time as it comes with a battery pack so I will be able to pump in my car. I keep giggling over this b/c part of me wonders if I will really freak out students when they walk by my car and I'm hunched over with my boobs out