THanks, ladies! All good ideas and great feedback. I have been really up and down and am still trying to stay positive about the SAMe, therapy, etc., but when I feel low I feel SO low and terrified of going back to that place again. So I am feeling good about getting all the information and input I can, so if I keep hitting my head against this wall, I can make an informed decision.
Depression is such a lame catch-22 - I know I could think more clearly about what to do and benefits vs. risk and all of that, and be more forgiving and compassionate to myself, if I felt better already. One the Zoloft started working (prerash) I felt really positive that YES I was making the right decision.
Anyway, there does seem to be some good research out there, and although it's mixed to some degree, every article or study I've come across shows little or no side effects to the baby, and so the benefits vs. the potential small risk thing is my decision.
This evening was better, after a low afternoon. Grandparent visits, then I took the baby for a walk, sat in the new hammock, made some dinner and dessert. She's asleep now at 8:30 (this is her first pre-bedtime nap - she always always always needs resettling after sunset but, hey, there's a first time for everything!) and I am hoping to get an early bedtime too. I'm going to start getting more proactive about naps and so on - it's tough for me to read the NCSS right now, even though I like the approach a lot, because one of the ways I spiraled anxiety and depression was getting obsessive about sleep. So I'm trying to stay calm about her and my sleeping habits and not try to be a control freak.
Hope everyone is having a lovely weekend!