I am starting to get sad. Baby is getting bigger every day (I had a 10 pound 12 ounce baby on his due date last time and it was hard for me, don't want to do that again)...I want him to come. Seems like my emotions/hormones are on an every other day cycle. Yesterday I was strong and felt terrific. Today I'm feeling sorry for myself. ugh.
I usually love to come here and read about the babies that have come- the birth stories have all been so incredibly smooth and positive. But today when I am seeing the new baby posts I'm almost in tears! Glad for everyone else but in the same breath so jealous!
I know this will all pass soon and baby will be here- duh- but it's still hard.
I am not going in to "work" so much as just dealing with all of the behind the scenes stuff of our three restaurants. I have finished most of the book work that needed to be done for the quarter and month end, but there's still the daily deposits and shifting money around. I was hoping for a bigger cushion going into labor so I wouldn't have to worry, but the oil spill has had people running scared and not spending money around here. My brother is on standby to do some of the financial stuff, but I'm still the only one who knows how to do most of that side of things - payroll and such. I feel like the baby is waiting for a peaceful moment to make her appearance and she's not seeing one... I'm trying really hard to just sit back and relax and not let the adrenaline take over and keep labor away.