ante-partum depression

[BoxOfRainMama]

Anyone else going through this?

I had ppd after both my children and this pregnancy I had been feeling pretty good until the last 2 weeks or so. Im not hanging so well these days The intrusive thoughts are there which was a major battle for me in both ppd spells, once they hit, I knew it was more than pregnancy blues Im so afraid to being heading there again.... I feel helpless to it. I called my doc that does medication management and like usual it will be a month before I can get in. I just ordered 1-2-3 magic on audio my therapist thinking t will help me in dealing with my other 2 children and "when words aren't enough" for myself. I love children, and I love being a mom.... but this part is just so painful

[klenertz]

I'm sorry that you are feeling this way. I have struggled with the same things as you, I don't really have any advice just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone. I was really depressed the first months or so of this pregnancy and I'm still not 100% yet. What has helped a little this time is keeping really busy. Maybe it's advoidance but I don't want to go back on any meds just yet.

Again, hang in there and trust that you aren't alone.

[BoxOfRainMama]

Thank you for letting me know Im not alone, that is a good feeling (although Im also sorry to know you know this pain too, I wouldnt wish it on anyone) with my 2nd pregnancy I had the depression early on too like you. But I was also going through many huge life changes so I thought that might have kind of added flame to the fire. When I got pregnant this time I was still on medication to treat PPD after my 2nd child was born., and I know coming off was not an option. I understand you not wanting to go to meds. with my 2nd pregnancy I felt the same way. I waited until 37 weeks to start meds, and like I said am still on them. I was constantly feeling so blessed to be feeling well through this pregnancy.... I feel so let down now, seeing where I am. I worry most about my older children.... I just feel like I dont have it in me to give them what they need. And I dont want to let them down

[Foobar]

Oh! Oh! Me Me Me!!!!

I had PPD with Goo and then was off meds and feeling great, until I got pregnant with Moo. I suffered until 7 weeks, when I figured out it was depression, talked to my docs. We decided to note it in my file and that we would try to avoid meds (my request) unless needed. I held out until the start of the second trimester, at which point I was in a dangerous position and could have caused harm to myself. I went back on the meds and it has helped tremendously.

I realize now that I was also putting Moo in danger because I don't eat when I am depressed and I was avoiding meals in the first trimester.

Since you are already on meds, call and see if you need to adjust it. I found that after I started treating this (and I also had my thyroid levels go crazy), that I rediscovered Goo all over again!

Good luck mama! You can always PM me if you want!

[wombat]

I was already depressed and on antidepressants when I got pregnant. I was on SSRIs until the end of the 1st trimester. Then I went off them and just continued with weekly therapy. I was absolutely terrified of PPD. But I didn't get it, despite having all sorts of birthing problems. I actually started getting better after the birth.

A pregnant mother with depression has to wait a month to see her doctor?? Did I read that right??? I can't believe the healthcare system here.