I'll have to watch the videos tomorrow as I'm sitting in the rocking chair waiting for T to wake up at his usual 3 cycles from bedtime. He does actually seem hungry usually, though.
Today he proved me wrong and was practically a model citizen even though he barely napped. I tried to get him to bed early, but no dice. His bedtime has been getting steadily later all week.
What does PPD feel like? I'm having at least 2 crying jags a day here. Up till this week i was doing fine, new mom fine, but fine. Now I'm looking at my kid and flipping out because he won't nap and I can't get anything done. I love him, and he's amazing and I feel like I am not doing my job well enough. I'm not appreciating him, playing with him, etc. I'm glad I'm doing this instead of my old job, but man this is hard! Staying at home with him to try to figure out his nap schedule, only to not be able to get him to nap. Not socializing at night because right now I'm the only one who can get him to sleep, and he wakes up after 2 hours and i spend the entire time worrying that he'll wake up, so i don't even enjoy having people over. I know this is all temporary, at best till the NCSS helps us, at worst until he's a few months older. But this is HARD.
DH is supposed to take T all day on Sunday so i can relax. We'll see how that goes. DH is annoying me because he always wants to try to DTD when I know the timing is bad. He stresses me out, and i just feel like i have one more person depending on me whom I'm letting down. I've explained this to him but it doesn't seem to have sunk in.
. To make it all worse, I know I'm actually quite privileged. I have very little to complain about other than having a non-napping baby. (and mosquitoes and too hot for carrier weather
it's so hot and humid here it's not comfortable for me to take T for walks outside so i assume it's not comfy for him either. Dunno, though. What are the signs of reflux? Guess I need to look that up.
Man I am whiny lately, and i wrote a book. Hope you all have lovely weekends!
Edit: looks like T may have actually made it through this sleep cycle, just to prove me wrong. I know we are making progress, I just have NO patience. Bad mama!