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[jenger]

Millefleur I hope you are feeling better... it's short term...

Ladies - I am 8dpo and just got restless. I have been totally positive, working on visualizing all the things that are supposed to happen, etc. I'm still feeling good, but that familiar feeling is returning... What if, what if it fails again this time... Am I still feeling good, but don't want to disappoint myself...

Anyway, I am getting restless.

I can't remember if anyone else is in the tww...

I wanna join Apricot and Nanette...

[slylives]

Official BFN. This was our third and final round of Clomid. Meet with the RE on Thursday to talk IVF.

[collieflower]

Originally Posted by jenger

I can't remember if anyone else is in the tww...

I am in the TWW!!! I'm 9DPO and going a bit batty too. Funny, I was just thinking about this while on a walk today. I'm having a particularly hard time with it this month. Thinking about testing tomorrow, even though I never test that early....

[jenger]

Originally Posted by collieflower

I am in the TWW!!! I'm 9DPO and going a bit batty too. Funny, I was just thinking about this while on a walk today. I'm having a particularly hard time with it this month. Thinking about testing tomorrow, even though I never test that early....

Oh good! We are cycle buddies!

I have never been a real POAS-er before, since my LP is 12 days without progesterone, and there is always a temp drop... But this is my second cycle on progesterone - I had a longer AF (4 days as opposed to 2.5) I ovulated early (cd15 as opposed to cd17) and I had a sharp rise, rather than my usual gradual rise. All of that make me hopeful...

And I am expecting a 14 day LP with progesterone, AND I was given a bunch of IC's from a friend who's in her 4th month after 1.5 years of trying...

So, in summary, I think I will be more of a POAS-er. But when? Should I wait until after the party on Saturday, so that I can guiltlessly enjoy local hard cider? So Sunday, 13dpo? Maybe earlier if I feel anything...

[enigo]

I'm in the TWW.. sort of... 12 DPO, but a very convincing BFFN on a Answer.
Being used to the ghetto brands, those crisp clean lines of the expensive tests don't kid around!
99% sure I'm out again.
BUT to be positive, I seem to get pregnant on the 4th cycle after a mc. The next cycle is the 4th. (already?)

[jenger]

Originally Posted by enigo

I'm in the TWW.. sort of... 12 DPO, but a very convincing BFFN on a Answer.
Being used to the ghetto brands, those crisp clean lines of the expensive tests don't kid around!
99% sure I'm out again.
BUT to be positive, I seem to get pregnant on the 4th cycle after a mc. The next cycle is the 4th. (already?)

How about this time you get pregnant on the 3rd cycle after mc, and then the baby sticks? I like that.

[enigo]

Originally Posted by jenger

How about this time you get pregnant on the 3rd cycle after mc, and then the baby sticks? I like that.

Well, that'd be cool except I already got my BFN for the 3rd cycle.
I'm so tired of trying and wishing my life away.

[BelovedK]

I'm still lurking every once in a while.

Sorry about the BFFN enigo

Apricot, I'm keeping your little bean in my prayers.


I just knew my BSL peeps would understand, but I founf out that someone I know (who is also on the older side, like me) is pregnant. My first reaction was top be upset, but now I realize that they tried for a long time, and eventually kind of gave up. So, I'm happy for her, but it still stings.

I'm barely even temping these days. I just kind of assume it's not possible for us without intervention, plus my son is giving us some trouble So, me TTC is on the back burner. Yeah, I know we stopped trying, but it is always kind of on my mind. I was surprised at the reaction I had today though

[Kinza]

Originally Posted by jenger

I can't remember if anyone else is in the tww...

I wanna join Apricot and Nanette...

I'm in the 2WW, too. 12 DPO. Trying trying trying not to POAS until 16 DPO. But, I'm restless, too. I just want this cycle to be over so I can start again. Theoretically I could be pregnant, but I'm sure I'm not.

Originally Posted by slylives

Official BFN. This was our third and final round of Clomid. Meet with the RE on Thursday to talk IVF.

Sorry, slylives. I hope your RE appointment goes well on Thursday.

Originally Posted by enigo

I'm in the TWW.. sort of... 12 DPO, but a very convincing BFFN on a Answer.
Being used to the ghetto brands, those crisp clean lines of the expensive tests don't kid around!
99% sure I'm out again.
BUT to be positive, I seem to get pregnant on the 4th cycle after a mc. The next cycle is the 4th. (already?)

Sorry, enigo But maybe, as you said, next cycle will be your cycle. And with a sticky this time.

Originally Posted by BelovedK

I just knew my BSL peeps would understand, but I founf out that someone I know (who is also on the older side, like me) is pregnant. My first reaction was top be upset, but now I realize that they tried for a long time, and eventually kind of gave up. So, I'm happy for her, but it still stings.

I'm barely even temping these days. I just kind of assume it's not possible for us without intervention, plus my son is giving us some trouble So, me TTC is on the back burner. Yeah, I know we stopped trying, but it is always kind of on my mind. I was surprised at the reaction I had today though

Oh, BelovedK, that just sucks to find out that someone who has similarities to you is pregnant. It just begs the question, why her and not me? I'm really sorry. for you, too.

So AFM, as I said, I'm 12 DPO. I'm really having a lot of painful cramping. If I didn't know better, I'd think it was a good sign. But, alas, I always have that, so I just get the annoyance and misery, but no hope.

I just found out someone I know is pregnant, and it brought out the green-eyed monster in me. I was nice to her about it, but inside I was thinking lots of ugly, jealous and judgmental thoughts. I'm ashamed of myself, but still feel that way. Ugh.

[BelovedK]

Originally Posted by Kinza

I just found out someone I know is pregnant, and it brought out the green-eyed monster in me. I was nice to her about it, but inside I was thinking lots of ugly, jealous and judgmental thoughts. I'm ashamed of myself, but still feel that way. Ugh.

I feel ya

[kalamos23]

Apricot - great news!!! Grow baby!

Afm- posting on my phone - got a very positive opk today, no doubt about it, so just have to bd tonight and tomorrow!

[miriam_bat_avraham]

Millie, thanks for the new thread! I agree about the lovely colors And feel better! Take care of yourself for a few days

Tear-- for AF, but for having to try again. You've been kicking around this thread far too long. Don't get me wrong, we love ya but I'd love to see you finally move up to a DDC and stay there, and just check in to shake some baby dust on the rest of us!

enigo-- I know how you feel. I temp during the TWW because obsessing feels like the only thing I have sometimes to feel like I'm still "doing something." The very real lack of control we have over this whole process (we do SO MUCH but when it's all said and done, there really isn't a lot of substance we can do other than BD and pray) is maddening and disheartening. It's kind of boiling down to emotional survival at this point. I need a TTC surrogate... someone else to do all the work for me so I can get pregnant! A pinch-hitter!

slylives-- I haven't tried IVF myself, although it's starting to morph into a fantasy in my head where some doctors make a baby and put it in me and I just lie down for a few days and boom! successful pregnancy. And I'm very aware that IVF is a much more involved process than that... but I like to pretend that it isn't and I could skip so much of this stress and just do IVF.

How was your DC conceived, if I may ask? (As in "Did you have interventions before?" I don't need any other details haha!)

collieflower-- that you won't even need IVF.

Do you know what might have been causing the recurrent m/cs? A friend of mine had a "shape of the uterus" problem and a surgical procedure fixed it (she and her husband now have a 2 1/2 year old son). I know that you can't always know what went wrong, but I didn't know if you ever found a cause.

Nanette-- Excited for your next round of numbers! Grow, little one!

Originally Posted by enigo

BFN...well off to hang out with my pregnant friend...hopefully there will be 10 million other pregnant women at the park.

THEY'RE EVERYWHERE. A BSL lady needs to make a parody trailer for a movie about this. Something like an alien movie would work... pregnant women coming down in spaceships and taking over town centers and shopping malls and schools... with cameos from Apricot, Jennifer and Nanette...

Apricot-- Hooray! Sounds like a baby to me!

Originally Posted by collieflower

I am in the TWW!!! I'm 9DPO and going a bit batty too. Funny, I was just thinking about this while on a walk today. I'm having a particularly hard time with it this month. Thinking about testing tomorrow, even though I never test that early....

How do you even wait that long??? I always always always cave on 8DPO. I know that it's possible, even if unlikely, and I just can't help myself. I think I'm going to give all my ICs and my one FRER to DH to hide from me once O is confirmed. Which, by the way, will be soon I hope... EWCM, +OPK, some crampiness and it's CD23. We've BDed the past two days and will again tonight, so I think our chances are at least decent in terms of timing.

BelovedK-- It sounds like you have a lot going on. You get a big

[Tara2]

Thanks everyone for the responses re my chart. Temp rebounded today so phew! Guess I did O when it says then.

jenger- oh I hope it's your month! please let it be it for you. i am feeling hopeful now for you too. But i don't want to feel hopeful for myself. I am in the 2ww too, barely, only 4dpo it seems. And creeping into the hmm, maybe I [I]could[I] be pregnant... couldn't I? Somebody slap me for letting hope creep in..

enigo- oh no. i hope there weren't any other pg ladies at the park. though your comment was quite funny.

slylives- sorry BFN did it's worst. i hate that. best luck at your appt. and hope that IVF makes a miracle possible for you.

milfleur- oh hon feel better soon! Unless, could it be m/s? i forget where you are in your cycle?

BelovedK- I'm sorry you're having those feelings. It sucks. Dude, a kind-of- friend of mine who was not ttc might be pg I just found out, and she knows we are ttc, and my first thought was dude you so better not be!

She has been talking about trying again soon, but is also always complaining how hard her DD is and how bad she acts.. at 21 months. And how will she cope with another, and maybe she should take meds for going crazy lately, and the next one better not have colic like this one. I have never said anything unsupportive to her, but just now it's zinging in my head like I want to just tell her to "shut up already!" if it's so hard now, guarantee it's not going to get easier. She sounds very ambivalent about having another, so in the past when she talks about ttc soon, I kind of say, well, it sounds like you may not be 100% ready. No need to rush, because once you have a baby it's for keeps. Better wait until you feel good about ttc. Swear I'm not saying this to her out of jealousy. If she sounded excited and happy to try, I could deal, even be glad for her. Worse if she doesn't want to but accidentaly gets pg... before me... Cause she kinda sounds like she's obligating herself, if that makes any sense. Crap, now I've talked all kinds of crap about it. Sorry. Wow. Didn't quite know all that was in there today. I'm sorry, ladies, for dropping that all on you unsuspecting.

Now I'll have to come back for more personals later..

[millefleur]

Thanks for the well wishes ladies - and the compliments - I appreciate it! Still not feeling so great but MUCH better than yesterday! No hurling today. Still dizzy though so this will be quick. I'm not spending much time online because the room is still spinning and all (though my internet is fixed at last - after two months! )

I've got nothing to obsess about this month. I'm not temping or charting or anything really. I have no idea what CD I am on and we're just DTD whenever. What a boring threadmistress!

I'm feeling very positive for us all this month though! I think there's gonna be a bunch more good news!

OK, love you ladies and wish I could write more but I gotta go lie back down...

[millefleur]

Originally Posted by slylives

Please add me to Waiting to Know But it's a BFN at 13dpo. I have a blood test at my RE's office to confirm (what I already know).

We meet with our RE on Thursday and I hoping we will get the go-ahead to start IVF right away. Anyone else looking at IVF? Would love to touch base with you if you are.

Hey there slylives. So sorry about the BFN . We don't do the whole waiting to know, waiting to O, etc. on this thread, just so you know.
Let me know what you want your "blurb" up top to say though and I'll add you to the list of BSL members! For some reason I don't have you up there!

[miriam_bat_avraham]

Tara-- I've mentioned on here before that I have a friend who announced her pregnancy with #2 with a Facebook email, which included "My due date is ____. My birthday. Not sure how I feel about sharing that, but oh well," and she's also been very sick and angry that another pregnant friend isn't sick at all, and etc. And I love her to bits but it's hard to hear. Today I got a text from her-- "We're having a boy!" So I'm all like, well, yay for you. I want a boy. Which is me being a pretty terrible friend (I didn't say that to her, just thought it; I haven't responded, though) but between death and lack of babies, I'm just all out of emotional ammo right now.

[Milk8shake]

I'm here to test the water a little. I'm branching out from the P&B loss forums where I usually hide. (Hello to the familiar faces)

I don't quite belong, because I'm not currently ttc, and I'm not sure if that's in our future or not. We may have to pursue other avenues. But I am bitter. And raw. Is that enough?

[Jane]

That's enough. Sorry you're here.

[millefleur]

Originally Posted by Milk8shake

I'm here to test the water a little. I'm branching out from the P&B loss forums where I usually hide. (Hello to the familiar faces)

I don't quite belong, because I'm not currently ttc, and I'm not sure if that's in our future or not. We may have to pursue other avenues. But I am bitter. And raw. Is that enough?

Come in! Come in! Welcome!

I will add you...what would you like your "blurb" up top to say?

[Tear78]

Originally Posted by Milk8shake

I'm here to test the water a little. I'm branching out from the P&B loss forums where I usually hide. (Hello to the familiar faces)

I don't quite belong, because I'm not currently ttc, and I'm not sure if that's in our future or not. We may have to pursue other avenues. But I am bitter. And raw. Is that enough?

Welcome, sweetie!