We had a lovely burial yesterday. It was terribly sad to see the pain that my children are experiencing. It was also very healing. It was just my immediate family and my brother so it was nice and I didn't feel like I had to keep my emotions in check. Played 2 great songs on the i-pad. Had balloons and each person got to say something to Emeric and then let it go in the sky. (I know not the most environmentally friendly things but We did that at my mothers funeral 16 yrs ago and I wanted to incorporate her into this somehow). I am hoping that we will be able to afford a proper headstone at some point. Overall it was very healing. I have had losses before and for some reason am fealing very protected, loved, and comforted at this point. I truely feel taken care of.
Very sad that this might be our last little one as going out on a note like this just isn't fun.
I want to thank all of you for your support during this time.