Originally Posted by BabyMae09
I'm finding it nearly impossible to believe in the mystical/magical/spiritual side of life these days
For me, that's a big deal - my spiritual life has always been my center, my roots, my favorite part of myself.
I've been exposed to so much 'scientific' information, dis-belief, patronizing comments, and on and on. My faith is waning.
I don't want to lose my faith, but I also don't want to believe things that are not true.
Has this happened to anyone? What did you do about it? Was it a blessing in disguise? What came out of it?
Wow, I'm so sorry you are going through this. It's a tough road to walk, to be sure. I don't know that I have anything helpful to say other than, I had very little faith my whole life because I was SO busy questioning. I knew all the "scientific" information and was constantly wanting to know how it all fit together. I was working so hard to understand, I didn't bother to feel.
So, yes, I lost (for a very long time) what little faith I had. And yes, it was a blessing. What happened is that I was forced to experience everything in a very different way and navigate my own path. By exploring it myself with no pressure I ended up with very strong faith, and that was an amazing gift. One that carries me every day.
That doesn't mean I don't like the science....I do. I just don't see it as being separate. Why does it have to be? I can give you several examples from both sides as to how the spiritual aspect and the biological aspect are really kind of one in the same. I remember reading The Biology of Belief
and practically weeping because it showed in such simple terms what I knew deep down.
I know this doesn't change anything for you, but I couldn't read and not respond. If you just trust that everything happening IS for your highest good, trust and have faith that no matter where it leads you it's okay you will get through this. I guess the only advice I'd give you is don't put pressure on yourself. Crises of faith can be extremely powerful, and pretty amazing spiritual people have them too. You aren't alone.