I will be VBACing as well. Hopefully, I guess. I really am not over my c/s and that was three years ago. I mean, I have space and all, but I'm not, you know, over
it. I keep thinking it was something wrong with my body (he was stuck) and what if the same thing happens all over again? That, of course, would mean that I am broken.
So I'm really just mentally preparing for my TOL. My previous birth involved pitocin, breaking my water, fetal monitoring, the works, through 20 hours of labor and only making it 4.5 centimeters. Talk about dejection! It was AWFUL. But (I'm kind of proud of this) I had no pain meds, except they had to numb for the surgery of course. Anyway, it was the complete opposite of what I wanted.
I made the decision to c/s, only because when presented with the options 1 - keep laboring and possibly going into distress which means a total knockout and no BF right away or 2 - bikini c/s and BF right away, I choose BFing. I just made that the thing that was really important. Now I'm realizing that BFing cannot replace the experience of natural childbirth. It just doesn't.
So... hopeful but wary. I guess I should be more concerned about making it to week 12, huh?
Any really great VBAC success stories would really help my hope factor!