I am new here. I am Laura and I have one DS who is nine months old and he was a HB. We just got a + sign again and my brain has started whirling thinking about my 2nd birth. My first labor was 33 hours and was awful but I have come to terms with my labor and I can look back and only see the good, I can remember all of it but take only the high parts to heart. So I don't feel like it's the trauma of a harsh labor that is making me doubt my midwife.
She was very invasive, hands on and BOSSY. But I feel like I made the right choice for me my first pregnancy and birth because I really needed the guidance (e.g. Bossiness) even though I didn't get the birth experience I wanted. So now I am wondering if I should find a new midwife or give this very lovely lady a 2nd chance. On a personal level she was a perfect fit she and my mom are like one person. I would love to use her again but with a whole new set of ground rules. I feel like for another birth I need a whole new cast of characters to get the birth experience I want/need to heal from my first labor. My mom, sister, midwife1, midwife2 and DH were at my DS's birth. I could not have made it through without my mom, DH was drowning in the birthtub by about hour 25, I had to stay in the tub to keep my bp down and so I need my mom to help me though the last 7 hours. Now I would like to have a non-invasive, low key just DH and I labor and midwife there to make sure daddy doesn't drop the baby when he catches him/her. We loved midwife2 and would gladly use her but then I worry about offending midwife1. Midwife1 has birthed 3 of my nephews 2 since DS and has used an apprentice who both of my S_I_L's loved and I just found out that she lives 5 blocks from us so I am wanting meet her and in hopes that she can be involved in our birth, DS and I make sure we walk past her house on our walks in case she is in her garden, before I knew who she was we saw her almost every walk!
Anyway after all this babbling my question is do I give midwife1 a second chance? Why I am wondering about this so soon is because I had very low progesterone levels at the beginning of DS's pregnancy so I want to get my hormone levels checked as soon as possible and I debating just making an appointment with the HB friendly OB/GYN to get lab work done, so I can wait to make a midwife decision. THANK YOU!!
She was very invasive, hands on and BOSSY. But I feel like I made the right choice for me my first pregnancy and birth because I really needed the guidance (e.g. Bossiness) even though I didn't get the birth experience I wanted. So now I am wondering if I should find a new midwife or give this very lovely lady a 2nd chance. On a personal level she was a perfect fit she and my mom are like one person. I would love to use her again but with a whole new set of ground rules. I feel like for another birth I need a whole new cast of characters to get the birth experience I want/need to heal from my first labor. My mom, sister, midwife1, midwife2 and DH were at my DS's birth. I could not have made it through without my mom, DH was drowning in the birthtub by about hour 25, I had to stay in the tub to keep my bp down and so I need my mom to help me though the last 7 hours. Now I would like to have a non-invasive, low key just DH and I labor and midwife there to make sure daddy doesn't drop the baby when he catches him/her. We loved midwife2 and would gladly use her but then I worry about offending midwife1. Midwife1 has birthed 3 of my nephews 2 since DS and has used an apprentice who both of my S_I_L's loved and I just found out that she lives 5 blocks from us so I am wanting meet her and in hopes that she can be involved in our birth, DS and I make sure we walk past her house on our walks in case she is in her garden, before I knew who she was we saw her almost every walk!
Anyway after all this babbling my question is do I give midwife1 a second chance? Why I am wondering about this so soon is because I had very low progesterone levels at the beginning of DS's pregnancy so I want to get my hormone levels checked as soon as possible and I debating just making an appointment with the HB friendly OB/GYN to get lab work done, so I can wait to make a midwife decision. THANK YOU!!
