Anyone pregnant after multiple early miscarriages?

[MarineWife]

Not sure if this goes here or preganancy after loss. All I saw there, though, was pregnancy after birth loss, which is not the same thing. So, I'm posting this here.

I am currently somewhere between 4w5d and 5w1d pregnant. This is my 9th pregnancy. I've had 3 healthy babies and 6 miscarriages. 5 of those miscarriages happened at or before 5w. One happened at 11w but the baby had died around 8w.

I am on such an emotional roller coaster right now. One day I'm excited and sure this baby is going to stick. The next day, like today, I'm constantly on the verge of tears and just sure I'm going to miscarry again. I have not told my dh that I am pg yet. I'm waiting until I can get an ultrasound and see a heartbeat. I'm hoping that will happen this week, maybe next. I know seeing a heartbeat doesn't completely eliminate the possibility of miscarriage but it greatly reduces the chances. I have not had any betas. I met with a midwife last Wednesday but was so focused on getting a referral to a maternal/fetal specialist that I didn't even to think to ask for a beta.

I have been taking hpts at least once every day since I got a bfp (9dpo) on internet strips. This morning the test line was lighter than my test from yesterday. I know "they" say the light or darkness of the line doesn't matter but that's how I knew about all my early miscarriages. My hpts were stop getting darker or never get darker at all and would eventually start getting lighter until there was no or almost no line and then I'd bleed. I know there's nothing I can do. I'm taking low dose aspirin, maca and flaxseed oil and using progesterone cream. If I'm going to miscarry, I'm going to miscarry. I just wish I could get past this one way or another.

[jessieb503]

Sorry you are going through this Mama. I've been there- I've had 3 miscarriages over the past two years but am now 25 weeks pregnant with a healthy baby girl.

I know its hard not to stress, especially with all of the hormones flooding in but just try really hard to focus on the positive- like the fact that you KNOW your body is capable of carrying healthy babies to term.

Take time each day to meditate and visualize yourself pregnant with a healthy baby. Trust that your body knows what to do.

[jessieb503]

Oh, and I noticed all the things you are doing to help- (aspirin, progesterone etc)... one think I did that my midwife suggested is eliminate gluten (wheat, barley and rye) for this pregnancy. She says that people with gluten allergies can have multiple miscarriages. I took a blood test and it was negative for gluten allergy but I gave it up anyway. Who knows if that is what worked with all of the stuff I am doing.

[leurMaman]

I'm there with you - although I am not 100% sure I'm pregnant. That is, I feel pregnant but don't have a good dark line yet. I got a ghost of a line that isn't substantial enough to show DH and I'm waiting to test again tomorrow.

This would be my 7th pregnancy. I've had 6 pregnancies - 3 m/c and 3 babies. I feel scared and hopeful and between both emotionals all the time too. I have had a m/c where the lines never got very dark. I think it is good that you had a few dark ones. The best thing is to be proactive and go get betas, I think. My last m/c I went with a midwife that didn't test me much or do u/s until 12 weeks and it was too late. This time I'm going to a clinic and getting as many tests and u/s as I need to walk down this road. I've earned it. I am not one to go overboard anyway.

Let us know how you are doing.

[MarineWife]

I just started spotting.

[MaerynPearl]

Oh NO!

Oh man I really hope it all turns out well

[babyjelly]

I'm so sorry.
Tell your husband. After eight losses, I can tell you, you need the emotional support...even if he has to fake some of it. An early loss is often not as real for them as for us.
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[Stayseeliz]

I'm so sorry! Hoping everything turns out well!

[MarineWife]

Thanks, everyone. I started to get hopeful again last night because I only had that one bit of spotting and I took another digital hpt that came up +. However, I woke this am to more spotting that is turning into more of a flow.

I did tell my dh last night and did not get a good response. No support whatsoever. If I hadn't just paid for a month of Tae Kwon Do for my boys, I'd be packing now.

[kalamos23]

Oh no. I am so so so sorry, honey. (((((((hugs))))) With 5 m/c occurring around 5 weeks, can you ask your doc for prog suppositories? Or perhaps do soy isoflavones/Clomid? That really sounds like it could be progesterone related. The prog cream is not as potent as the supps. I would highly recommend demanding the supps next time around (or alternatively, use clomid or soy to improve egg quality and hopefully progesterone levels). I know there is something else that causes early miscarriages, but for the life of me I can't remember right now - it may be NK cells, or possibly APA/ANA but if it is APA/ANA, the baby aspirin should help with that to reduce inflammation. I'm thinking in your case it is something autoimmune or progesterone related - this link helped me try to figure out why we keep losing:
http://www.rialab.com/miscarriages_prevented.php

I'm really sorry your DH is being such a total ass. If you need anyone to talk to, I am always open to PMs and the ladies in the TTCafter a loss thread are amazing too.

[MarineWife]

Thanks, Rachel. My natural progesterone levels are supposedly within the normal rande and I've m/ced while using progesterone suppositories, too. I was going to ask for them anyway when I saw the MFM doc as a precautionary measure because I know the cream isn't as potent. I was just using that until I could get a script for the supps. I've had all the autoimmune and blood clotting disorder testing done. Everything was fine except for the mthfr double mutation, for which I was prescribed 4 mg folic acid.

I may come over the Loss board but probably won't join the TTC after Loss board. We aren't ttc and my dh made it very clear, despite his actions, that he doesn't want to have another baby.