The second blue line on the pregnancy test stick is so faint that it could almost not be there. The one from earlier last night, although I'm not supposed to read after 10 minutes, is a tiny thin blue line. I feel certain that if I wait and test again in the morning I will have a steadier line.
I should know when I feel pregnant. This would be my 7th time. I lost my last two pregnancies one after the other (making it to 10 weeks and beginning a m/c while wrapping presents on christmas eve, the second time I made it to my 12 wk appt to hear the heartbeat and instead was told that there was none and I had lost it as well).
We only had sex once this month, I hate to admit. It was 10 days ago. The next morning I noticed my breasts were sensitive and slightly darker. It hurt to put my bra on. Since then my face has broken out like a teenager, I started to feel sleepy and drugged at the end of the day (more than usual), my sense of smell is heightened, I want to cry all the time (want to cry writing this), and I've had unusual twinges and cramps in the uterus. I still need solid proof, but I feel so sure that I'm pregnant.
I really want this fourth child. I don't want a fourth miscarriage or a third in a row. It all makes me feel shaky to walk this path again. My husband wanted to wait after the last m/c and move, do a major family transition to Texas, and then try again. I'm not sure how he will welcome the news. We had sex two days after the day I should have ovulated.
I'll update tomorrow if I have a really solid line. Thanks for listening. I can't tell anyone what I feel, so I'm here. Sigh. I have a birth class to teach tonight and I just saw no less than three newborns in the last week that were all due at the same time one of my miscarreid babies was due. What a trip. Hope to join a DDC soon.
I should know when I feel pregnant. This would be my 7th time. I lost my last two pregnancies one after the other (making it to 10 weeks and beginning a m/c while wrapping presents on christmas eve, the second time I made it to my 12 wk appt to hear the heartbeat and instead was told that there was none and I had lost it as well).
We only had sex once this month, I hate to admit. It was 10 days ago. The next morning I noticed my breasts were sensitive and slightly darker. It hurt to put my bra on. Since then my face has broken out like a teenager, I started to feel sleepy and drugged at the end of the day (more than usual), my sense of smell is heightened, I want to cry all the time (want to cry writing this), and I've had unusual twinges and cramps in the uterus. I still need solid proof, but I feel so sure that I'm pregnant.
I really want this fourth child. I don't want a fourth miscarriage or a third in a row. It all makes me feel shaky to walk this path again. My husband wanted to wait after the last m/c and move, do a major family transition to Texas, and then try again. I'm not sure how he will welcome the news. We had sex two days after the day I should have ovulated.
I'll update tomorrow if I have a really solid line. Thanks for listening. I can't tell anyone what I feel, so I'm here. Sigh. I have a birth class to teach tonight and I just saw no less than three newborns in the last week that were all due at the same time one of my miscarreid babies was due. What a trip. Hope to join a DDC soon.
I hope it's all good news and a happy, healthy, and uneventful 9 months for you.
Either that or a chemical pregnancy. In any case, my period started late and I got a BFN on the last test. I guess I went through those emotions without cause. In any case, I know I want to try again sometime soon. I'm also very grateful for your sweet and thoughtful responses. When I do get my next BFP I'm going to pray my heart out.
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