I'm 15 weeks pregnant with baby #4, and I'm suddenly single. My first birth was an unnecessary Cesarean (midwife birth gone wrong.) I delivered my next two at home, unassisted, with my husband of 12 years as my birth partner. One birth was in DE. The other was in PA.I've been having regular prenatal care through an OBGYN here in MD, simply because the Medicaid covers it and I've been a bit insecure during this pregnancy, considering all that I've been through. I have NO intention of delivering in a hospital whatsoever. I WAS going to use the OB as my back up plan "just in case," until she informed me that the hospital she delivers at (Union) does NOT allow VBAC's! I didn't realize hospitals in this day and age could still be so outdated.
Anyway, honestly, I'm nervous about delivering this baby at home, completely unassisted. I don't have a partner anymore. No close friends. No family. It's just me and my three kids. My labors tend to be long (24+ hours) and painful. I don't know how I will make it through the entire thing alone, and watching my kids.
I've been looking into homebirth midwives, but apparently homebirthing with a midwife is illegal here! I did find one midwife, Karen Webster, but she has not replied to any of my e-mails or calls to her home phone and cell phone.
I just found another (Laura, I believe, from Sunrise Midwife, or something similar.) She does do homebirths here, but doesn't accept Medicaid. Since I'm Medicaid eligible, she will drop my fee to $2700. I'd need to give her a $500 deposit up front then pay about $100 per week for the remainder of the pregnancy. I can't afford that. I'm barely managing food, bills, and school supplies as it is.
So, that seems to leave me with one choice: to deliver this baby at home, completely alone, with my three children present.
Any other ideas? Suggestions? Please.








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