Slightly screwed in the head

[lil_miss_understood]

Just found out my friend's son (17yo), whom I babysat when he was little, died this morning. She lives far away and we had lost contact for a long time so I don't have her phone number to call her.
I guess he was using meth and OD'd. His dad found him this morning.
I'm in shock and I can't even imagine what they're experiencing.

[lil_miss_understood]

I'm feeling absolutely ridiculous that I'm reacting to this so strongly. I mean, in honesty, I barely knew him. I babysat him for 3 years or so and hadn't seen him since (well, one time when she came in to my workplace with them a few years ago). But I'm reacting as if he was a normal part of my every day life, yk? I feel like it was such a huge personal loss. I mean, sure, I expected to be able to see her kids again and was looking forward to seeing the grandkids he'd give her and stuff (assuming he would have) but... really?
wth?
The only thing I can think of is that it's hitting harder because it happened so close to the 2 year anniversary of the suicide of one of my best friends.
And all I keep thinking is WTF?

[Mama~Love]

I am so sorry you're going through this. I have no anwers why, but couldn't not reply. Just offering 's!

[dannic]

Hugs, JR. I think stuff like this hits hard because it seems so senseless and wasteful of life. Prayers for you and esp your friend. SO SAD.

[Bokonon]

How awful. I would have a hard time with a loss like that too. You can feel however you need to feel and not question it.

[Sandrine]

(((hugs)))

The kids that we babysit have a deeper spot in our heart than we think at times. Even if it's been a long time since you have seen him.

I'm sorry for their and yours loss.

[deditus]

Aww sweetie, I lost a good friend to a drug overdose when dd was little. It was so hard. And when I was home in July and my nephew's gma died, that was all I could think to myself - WTF. Really? - WTF! So sad, so sorry. I think it is almost harder to grieve in these instances because you feel f'd up but at the same time feel guilty, when it's not someone you were close to it's almost like well, what right do I have to be so affected by this? But you do, especially this time of year, you have a right to be sad too and mourn the life of one you knew even if for only a while.

[Theloose]

I can't think too hard when I hear about a loss, or else it brings up too many feelings from my own losses. Mostly my dad, who died unexpectedly when I was 8, and I'm still only barely processing it. So yeah, I'd probably react much more strongly than seems 'appropriate' as well.

[tanyalynn]

Jr

[lil_miss_understood]

Awake and coping better than yesterday. Feeling less... surreal?

[josie143]