For as long as I can remember I've had problems motivating myself to do anything. In high school I couldn't motivate myself to study, which has continued through university, and resulted in my dropping out.
Now it's causing me problems in every day life. I am an artist, but can't motivate myself to draw, despite the prospect of art work making money. I can't even get the motivation to do the crafts I enjoy; knitting, crochet among other things. I just end up sitting around all day, doing very little. I just can't make myself get off the chair to be productive, despite the positive things doing it would result in. It's not even something as simple as laziness.
I do housework, play with my daughter, and do all the necessary things, but I find doing anything that's optional impossible. I'm terrible for procastination, and just don't have the will to do much. It makes me feel miserable and useless, but I have no idea how to get out of this rut. I don't even know why I have such a huge problem with something so silly.
I'm also worried that I'll turn out like my Mother; she was lazy and never did anything with us because she didn't feel like it. She rarely played with us or took us anywhere, and complained if we wanted her help in anything.
Can anyone give me advice? I'm so sick of wasting my days and just want to be productive and make the most of my artistic skills. I also worry that this awful habit might rub off on my daughter when she's older. Any help would be great.
Edited to add; UPDATE #39!
Edited by nettlesoup - 11/14/10 at 3:32am