I'm so sad about it, but I feel like a co-sleeping failure! DD is 8 months, and when she was 6 months I moved her to the crib in her own room (Our room is too small for the crib or even a bassinet), but missed her and was so guilty about not being capable of breastfeeding, that I moved her back to make sure we'd develop at least some kind of bond. But the issues that were the original reason I moved her are still there! DH snores unless the fan is up insanely high Which makes it freezing! I'm cold, so I know she has to be, and she won't let a blanket go on her. She also likes to snuggle rightbesideme which I get really uncomfortable at night, I toss and turn a lot usually and when she's there I stay on one side, which starts killing my shoulder. So in my sleep I move over, then she moves over, until I am trying to occupy a 3 inch space on the edge of the bed! The other issue is that I'm super hyper-aware when I sleep, so any little noise I'm as good as wide-awake, so every breathe and noise she makes (she's a NOISY sleeper), I'm awake! Which means that out of a 6 hour night, I might actually sleep maybe 2 hours! I'm exhausted! But she loves it so much, being close to me all night (Though she does sleep well in her crib until lately. When I put her back into my bed, she was waking up about 5 times a night, but that's because she's teething).
Support? Suggestions? I'm insanely tired, but it's my only strong way of bonding with her now.
Support? Suggestions? I'm insanely tired, but it's my only strong way of bonding with her now.
mama! it is rough, but i am sure you will find a solution!
You'll still be able to bond and get sleep. If you are feeling bad about breastfeeding not working (not that you should, it just doesn't work sometimes) just spend extra time cuddling at bedtime and through the day as much as you can. You will be bonded, don't worry. You have the rest of your life to be a parent, and although infancy is an important time, there are lots of other important times too...pretty much all of it. 
