I am in a
foul mood. I'm only four days postpartum but I'm already feeling cooped up and frustrated and really anxious. There is a ton of stuff I want to be doing in the house and I can't do anything at all. I had a really bad hemorrhage and I can barely walk to go to the bathroom.

Yesterday I seriously overdid it. I answered the front door, put a plate in the kitchen, and picked up a cable from the office. My house is 950 sq ft and all on one level. This wasn't exactly excessive walking. Today I feel substantially worse again. My husband is doing really poorly from sleep deprivation (our babe wants to be most active from 9pm-2am) and our toddler isn't letting us nap during the day at all. I feel like I am going insane.
I am BORED. I want to be doing things. I want to get up and get a bunch of work done. I'm still losing really large clots and my midwife has told me that in her opinion I should not get out of bed other than the bathroom for two weeks.
So I'm short tempered and nasty. I feel really bad about my attitude.

My husband is trying so hard. He's waiting on me and dealing with our toddler as best he can. He's trying to do things like laundry, but he seems physically unable to do stuff like looking for stains on the toddler's clothes and pretreating them so I don't even want him doing everything.
And my computer is being weird. It's about a month old and for some reason the disk space (like 75gb) is already full and we can't figure out what in the heck is going on because I haven't put movies or pictures or music or any other data from old back ups on it. I just feel like throwing it against the wall.
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