thanks for the hugs and ears Oki, upnorth, and Cami. I've calmed down oodles. I spoke with my MIL (WAY more of a mother to me than my mother) and she said that if that was the case she would do what she could to come down and stay with me if/when I needed it. Even if she doesn't having heard that calmed me down SO SO SO much. And also now that it's less than a week before I get to see hubby for a little while at least is helping for sure!