Last post was getting long, so thought I'd start fresh in a new one.
My LO is sick with her second bout of croup right now, but handling it much better than the 1st. No middle of the night coughing fits this time. Just the weird sound on inhale when she wakes up and momma isn't in her room like she was when she fell asleep. Sleep is still an issue here. I am exhausted. She used to give me some 4-6 hour stretches every once in a while, but those are few and far between now. I got 3 hours and then 2 and then one last night. I start her out in her crib, and then she comes to bed with me after her first wake-up. I am kind of slowly working my way through the Dr. Jay Gordon night weaning thing combines with some NCSS stuff. She doesn't nurse to sleep any more, but she does still think she needs to nurse to sleep. I was limiting the time she can nurse, but with the croup, I am doing whatever I can to keep her calm and avoid the coughing fits. I am getting to the point where I really just need more sleep. I feel like a crappy mom to my older dd, my patience is shot and DH and I are arguing more because we are both exhausted. Not real arguments, but just the little stuff like you shouldn't shovel the snow right now because you'll be late for your meeting at work and my 6 YO is upset because we are arguing again. It's that we are so tired, we are not watching our tones. I assured her that we aren't mad at one another, but just like hse doesn't always agree with her friends, daddy and I don't always agree either. But she's been very sensitive to it lately and i know things will get better if I could get some sleep.
Bunny is so much fun right now. She is a helper too. I tell her to come help with the laundry and she goes over and stands at the dryer ready to put wet clothes in. I had to get her involved so I could get the laundry done and keep her out of trouble while I do it. But if I unload the dryer, she tries to take the clothes out of the basket and put thme back in the dryer. :) I'm not ready to let her help with dishes, but she likes to sweep. She still hates diaper changes, so she will not come if I ask her to.
She puzzles me with talking. She talked early, but has not kept any of those words in her vocabulary. She used to say hair, hello, lots of others. She wouldn't say dada for a while and is back to saying it, but rarely says momma or mom-mee like she used to. I guess that's normal. I don't remember from my 6 YO. She does say sis, uh-oh, o's, joosh (juice- which is water, my water bottle, and cup) and I know there have been some phrases, but am totally blanking. She understands a lot, so I'm not going to worry.
It amazes me how much and how well she plays with her sister. They develop their own little games and just have so much fun together. If I had known during my years of infertility and losses that my girls would end up being so close with 5 years between them, I would have saved a ton of tears. The anniversary of my positive test with her passing has made me think about that a lot lately. We're definitely ready to put the whole issue of fertility behind us if dh ever schedules his consult for his vas.
Ugh, gotta run, she's up from nap early. again.