yes this chat is quite. I don't know what to say most of the time. I just feel like I am whinning, lol!
Today has been a stressful day. I could not fall asleep last night. I was spotting a bit and had a lot of pain, not contractions but pain. I finally feel asleep around 3:30. I wake up at 7:30 to get ds ready for school. Dp's mom has been really great, helping out with EVERYTHING. SHe made his lunch today so I didn't have to. Even on my semi bedrest I have been getting up and doing mornings with ds. Dp is a sleepy head, much to grumpy to do mornings.
I Am not sure how much of my story you ladies know, but I have weekly appointments with a family support worker. (my children went to live with family then in foster care for ds and I went to get help for a drug and alcohol problem) anyway, dp just unloads on this lady, saying I never disapline or interact with ds. that even thou I have to take it easy I should be playing with him and all this crapp
I have been doing everything I can. I am still doing bedtime. I made dinner tonight and last night. I sit and play cards with ds and read him books- or he reads to me. I totally freaked, I said, " can you stop? it makes me look like i can't do this, they might take him away." I understand that dp is frustrated. But come on! later he told me,"you wanted to be pregnant, so suck it up"
I am feeling so hurt and just..... not loved or cared for right now. i thought we were in this together and now I am not sure. I feel very alone. I am dependent on him I can't leave him. Plus I don't want to leave him. But its not a nice feeling to think that one day I *might* have to
anyway sorry about going off AGAIN! I don't have many good friends IRL. I guess I just needed to get it all out.
oh and I am spotting again, but not any more pain, well its not different.
stay in baby.