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In the PICU with a skull fracture..and its totally my fault.

post #1 of 69
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Im not sure if this is the right place to post, but Im so tired. Please feel free to move it.
Sorry, this got kinda long.

So, I was leaving Whole Foods with DD and I had her in her carseat in the grocery cart. As we were checking out, she started crying, so I unstrapped her and nursed her at one of the booths in the eating area while I had my pink grapefruit soda.

I popped her in her seat and didnt strap her in because I was going to change her diaper on the seat of the car ( diapers were in the car, not on me). When were on the way to the car ( I parked in the first row) I hit a pothole and the whole entire cart tumped over. As she flew out, I tried to catch her and it broke her fall, but she still hit her head on the concrete. I immediately picked her up and started nursing her. Within about 30 seconds there were over 20 people surrounding me, touching me, telling me what to do and not to do. This really nice lady escorted me to her car and had me sit there until EMS showed up. I later found out that her daughter had seziures, so she was used to having to avoid huge crowds of onlookers.

By the time EMS arrived DD was smiling, giggling, and totally happy. They told me I should take her to the hospital just to check, but it didnt seem like she needed a ride in the ambulance. When we got to the hospital, the doctor suggested we do a CT scan. We weighed the pros with the cons and decided that Id rather be safe than sorry on a head injury at 5 months. The CT came back about 45 minutes later and they told me that they were transferring us to Childrens Hospital because she had a skull fracture and some bleeding in the epidural layer. Then they told me she couldnt have anything to eat or drink (no nursing). She was all smiles until they stuck a hep lock in her and then she screamed for 6 hours.

About an hour ago, they did another CT and found that the bleeding has not increased since the first one. We have to stay here for observation, and they are planning to do two more CT's in the next 12 hours, totalling 4 CT scans on a 5 month old. They let me nurse her to sleep, but they said depending on what the next CT says, they may say no more nursing again.

I am so scared that something is going to be prementaly wrong with her or that the affects of all of these CTs are going to cause a problem. Has anyone had a baby with head trauma this early? Am I overreacting? I have so many issues with being in hospitals and trusting what Im being told, but I no NOTHING about head trauma. I really wasnt expecting this so early in her life, and I feel like a total failure for not being more cautious.

TIA for your thoughts, advice, and support .
 

 

*edited to omit doctor's names and exact locations. 


Edited by Adaline'sMama - 3/27/13 at 7:36am
post #2 of 69
Oh mama, I'm sorry this happened. I wouldn't worry about the numerous CT scans. It's all about weighing the risks. I'm sending many healing vibes your way! Hoping that you will be allowed to keep nursing your daughter.

Please KUP mama, best of wishes to you.
post #3 of 69
Wow - that must have been SO scary. Thank goodness for the help of strangers sometimes.

The fact that the bleeding hasn't increased is a really good thing. Head injuries are something that they tend to be really cautious with & the fact that dc is so young just increases that cautiousness.

Take care mama - I hope you both are home safely very soon.
post #4 of 69
Oh, you poor, poor thing! Sending you and your daughter BIG, no, HUGE hugs. Having a baby hospitalized is beyond awful.

I would not be super-stressed about the CT scans-- but you could always discuss it with your doctor.

And, mama, it was an accident. Be gentle with yourself. You didn't hit her or throw her, it was an accident. I'm sure she'll be fine, babies are incredibly resilient.

Sending you all much love and light.
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I'm so sorry that happened mama. Try to be positive. I agree that hopefully the prognosis is good because the bleeding hasn't increased. I'm just a momma too, wishing the best for you and your DD.
post #7 of 69
I'm so sorry this all has happened to you.

You did the absolute right thing, and IMO the CT scans really are necessary - it's a serious situation, but it sounds like it's going in the right direction and that you are in good hands. Hang in there. Don't forget to eat and drink so that your strength stays up.

I haven't had that experience personally but I have a cousin who had a terrible skull fracture early in life and he is fine and has a PhD and a family.
post #8 of 69
Accidents happen mamma. Big hugs to you.

Don't worry about the effects of the CT scans...the risks of the effects of the head injury outweigh ANY potential risks of the scans.
post #9 of 69
I'm so sorry that happened. How scary.

I will keep you and your dd in my thoughts.


I don't know much about head injuries, but my grandmother often talked about how my dad flipped out of the grocery cart and landed head-first on the concrete floor when he was a baby. He turned out fine.
post #10 of 69
While i don't have experience with skill fractures, my ds had many many many many x-rays and ct's and and heart ultrasounds and medical stuff done to him by just 3 months of age. He was born with a heart defect and underwent open heart surgery at 3 months. He has had many many many more (he even had daily x rays while at the hospital). Also needed to "fast" before his pre-op day (filled with blood draws, xrays and being forced to drink nasty liquid to put him to sleep for an u/s) and his surgery day (we cheated a little with the nursing...they said none for 6 hours but we nursed 4 hours before...i could not deny my baby AND i read online that most medical professionals consider nursing a "clear" fluid like water.

He is now 3 years old and the healthiest kid I know

Hope that eases some of your worry.
post #11 of 69
I'm so sorry about this! Accidents happen!!! Hope the recovery goes well!!
post #12 of 69
Such huge hugs to you mama. My DS is not six weeks old and on two seperate occassions we've spent the night on the Peds ward. It's awful. Beyond the fact that you're so worried about your DC, hospitals are just the worst and it is so hard to sort through the doctor's advice to figure out what's true and what's just protocol to cover their a$$es so they don't get sued.

In your case I would think the CT scans are totally warranted! You don't want to mess around with a head injury in someone who's so little and who can't tell you in words if they're hurting and where and how it feels. And be gentle with yourself, accidents happen. I would never have dreamed that one of those little carts could totally tip over, I use them alll the time at Whole Foods.
post #13 of 69
Children are amazingly resilient creatures ... and I'm saying that as a paramedic who scoops them up out of some pretty horrific situations.
I'm glad that you went with EMS and had the diagnostics done, because just as children are super resilient, they also compensate very well for a long time, and then crash quickly, so it is always better to be somewhere where they can be cared for.

All that said, here's a great big hug.
I'm crying for you this morning, because I know that you must feel very scared, and having gone through that must've been very, very difficult for you and still is.

Can your DD nurse again yet? I hope so ... it will make both of you feel better!
Take care of yourself, hon. Drink lots of water, and try to sleep when you have the opportunity.
post #14 of 69
Hugs, Mom. I know how scary this is (my daughter spent 10 days in NICU) but just ride it out. You are strong enough, and doing a wonderful job being there for your baby.

and prayers.
post #15 of 69
Thread Starter 
Thank you to everyone for your kind words of support. Right now we are waiting to hear from the neuroligist team that is veiwing her CT's. It was a hard night, but I am so glad they have let me keep nursing.

DD seems to be doing fine. I am pretty happy with this hospital experience, even though it is really hard to see her with all these cords all over her little bity body. This ward of the hospital is filled with so much sadness, I think me being upset about her having to be stuck for an IV was a little silly. The families here have so much strength.

Thanks to everyone. Ill post an update later on.
post #16 of 69
How very scary. Thank you for the update. I am glad it is going well and that you are able to nurse.
post #17 of 69
i'm so glad things seem to be going ok. i can't imagine going through something so scary. big hugs.
post #18 of 69
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Originally Posted by Adaline'sMama View Post

DD seems to be doing fine. I am pretty happy with this hospital experience, even though it is really hard to see her with all these cords all over her little bity body. This ward of the hospital is filled with so much sadness, I think me being upset about her having to be stuck for an IV was a little silly. The families here have so much strength.

Thanks to everyone. Ill post an update later on.
It's NOT silly to be upset about an IV! My ds was in the hospital overnight for seizures and the IV was the worst part!

I'm glad she's still nursing, that was a life saver while ds was in the hospital! many hugs to you, but it wasn't your fault, it was an accident! Accidents happen!
post #19 of 69
and I agree IVs are their own special kind of misery.

I hope your sweet girl is feeling better momma. Don't be too hard on yourself, accidents happen.

V
post #20 of 69
I don't have much to add but just wanted to :

Please don't blame yourself. Accidents happen, and can happen to anyone.

I also wouldn't worry about the CT scans. Better safe than sorry.

Sending you and your baby some healing vibes. Take Care.
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