I am very new to this. Just registered. And am not religious at all. What drove me to write to you is that I threatened my husband for a divorce two months before the birth of my second child, when I was physically very different from the "normal" state. It is a time I can only speak the doom and gloom. Now I'd like to think that our relationship grows like our children, stronger and smarter everyday. Is it possible that it is a really bad PP period you are experiencing? Do you feel better now? How do you feel about your marriage before this recent birth? When in doubt, I write down a detailed analysis of my current state, where I want to be, and foreseeable paths. I do trust reasoning more than mysterious forces and signs that can easily be misread. Regardless of your spiritual state, I wish you physically and mentally healthy and strong. You are the god to your small children.