I am so tired. Elias was up from 11pm to 3 am nursing and fussing. And I can't sleep unless it's dark.
Otherwise, we all are doing well. My friend came over yesterday. It was her birthday so I had made a cake (chocolate--not a good idea, for Elias' sake), and we sat around, chatting. Gosh, it felt so good to have something break the monotony of sitting on the couch, nursing, changing diapers, getting my toddler more milk/food. Tomorrow is the big grocery shopping trip, which consists of our 1 month pantry stock up. My mom and sister also do this, so we've just been going together for the past few months. I am totally looking forward to it. My wrap is ready, ds loves to go especially since the last stop is Costco and he always gets extra samples, AND I get to walk. Ahhhh, to take a long walk.
Mentally doing a lot better, still. Finally set up our first appointment with the trauma therapist. Next Tuesday. We'll see if we click, and go from there. Then later on is the ICAN meeting. Not sure if all that rehashing will help or not. Hopefully it will be a bit cathartic, since both will be in safe places.
I am also skimping on the pumping. I've only done it once. I need to do it every day so that by the time spring rolls around, and I need to go to classes again, I will have a considerable freezer stash. That, and it would be nice to have some milk stashed away for when I am cleared to go back to the gym.