"Best I Never Had" - Beyonce
"Little Miss" - Sugarland
Lately I've been listening to Green Day's 21 Guns.
Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
and you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
and you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins.....
It's a lot like how I feel.Our relationship is not worth dying for,I've fought for too long.But he still broke my heart.But it's getting better.
Bruised But Not Broken- Joss Stone (Best break up song ever! Youtube it!)
Good Morning - India Arie
Breakeven - The Script
Slowly Surely - Jill Scott
Green Eyes - Erykah Badu
So What - Pink
Roses - Andre 3000/Outkast
Sometimes - Erykah Badu
Be Happy - Mary J Blige
Rain On Me - Ashanti
These Eyes - India Arie
Do I Ever/I Miss You - Brian McKnight
Emotional - Carl Thomas
Toni Braxton's first cd (LOL - My mom used to play it alot)
Go On Girl - NeYo (The male version of "Irreplaceable" which NeYo also wrote)
Breaking Dishes - Rihanna
Take A Bow - Rihanna
"Both Hands" by Ani DiFranco--really really helpful to me tonight. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEU9T_6uNFc
I'm excited to have found this thread and this section on the mothering forums! Very newly separated and feeling devastated at the moment so glad to see that MDC has a support forum that might help me through this!
Thanks Emilie2. I'm doing well tonight--although this has been a wild roller coaster ride--I am not typically a super emotional person, but I sure can't recall feeling ups and downs like this before. Part of the journey I'm sure... :) Glad to be here (among supportive MDC moms...not necessarily thrilled about being in the separation boat. ;)
Thank you so much for this thread ... its exactly what I need.
I'm only 4 days into my break up with my cheating ex (still feels weird to call him my ex after 10 years!) But i've got my self a really empowering (sometimes angry) playlist based on this thread. Makes me feel actually happiness in all this mess :)
Mught I suggest Happy Now by No Doubt http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwnlcKZhRlQ
I've been stay away from sad songs, I'm far too raw and fragile for that but Broken strings by James Morrison and Nelly Furtardo say exactly how I'm feeling right now http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=id-3FKPpTKw
"I Just Don't Know What To Do With Myself" by Elvis Costello
And like, a ton of Smoking popes songs, but especially "No More Smiles" and ::story of my breakup practically:: "Pretty Pathetic"... yeah I'm just going to post the lyrics like a 16yr old girl would on her school folder because they were so spot on. Even thinking about it makes me feel like I got nailed in the chest with a wrecking ball:
You should have heard me sobbing
As I drove home that night
Got into bed and stayed there
For days I just laid there
Having been permanently changed
But we won't get into that now
Let's take it from the start
You should have seen me smiling
Like the world was mine
She used to call me baby
But if I dwell on those days too long
I feel like my life is over
And that's no good
So let's move on
To the part where I begin to sense
I panic and hold on tighter
But that makes it worse
How am I supposed to take it
When she said:
"This is something I'm going through,
It's got nothing to do with you"
I had a special evening all planned out
Desperately determined to reignite
Some spark between us
She had to feel something for me
A love as strong as ours
Doesn't just go away
You can't just turn it off
Unless she was lying all those times
But I don't think so
I really don't think so
The way she used to look at me
Made me a thousand feet high
The meaning of the word cool
Not the same geek
Who fumbled through his words that night
The ugliest night
I said some pretty awkward things
I got the feeling that she felt sorry for me
I should have seen it was hopeless and left it alone
But I had to go on embarrassing myself
"I miss what we had I need you so badly,
I miss what we had I need you so badly"
I must have sounded pretty pathetic, I know
That's why I don't blame her for what she said
But listen to me rambling
We don't know each other that well
But you're so easy to talk to
I feel like I can tell you almost anything
I hope I haven't put you off
I have a tendency to do that
Why don't I just be quiet?