born july 31, 2010 -- 4 pounds, 4'11, 4'12
33 weeks gestation
7 weeks old now
all babies are now 5+ pounds, boy is 6.5 pounds
NICU for 18 days, nursed all the time, thought they were doing well, bt no test weights in that nicu, so i didn't realize until after we were discharged that they actually are really weak nursers --
Baby M maybe gets 20-30 mL on a good session and normally more like 6-10 mL. She "should" be taking about 60 mL every 2-3 hours. Lact consultant said she has a high palate but no visible/palpable tongue tie.
Baby P gets 20-40 mL straight from the breast several times a day, but it takes a long time. Lact counsultant said she has a mild tongue tie, but didn't think clipping was needed - -though I don't think she factored in how servere ANY obstacle is when you consider how many babies I have and how few hours there are in the day.
Baby H is a pretty good nurser, or was, and can get 30-60 several times a day, in less than 30 minutes, but is big so needs more than that so he has to nurse all day and night in order to poop often and grow well (and in order not to scream all day)
If I had any ONE of these babies, I think I could do it. But all three, there just are not enough hours in the day.
We supplement them with my pumped milk,a dn milk I get from friends, mostly using feeding tubes (#5 french) sometimes at the breast, sometimes with a pacifier (like finger feeding).
I was confused during the first 6 weeks, thinking that I was doing well to have one or more babies at the breast 16+ hours a day, but I did not realize they were such poor nursers, and so now I do not have enough milk (it came it, but they did not remove it from the breast well, so my supply went down). Now, several times a day, I am pumping instead of nursing, or only nursing each for 5-10 minutes (15 for the boy, who actually puts some effort in it). I have had days where I have pumped most of what they take, but then I have days where I can barely pup anything. I think the herbs have stopped working, plus i am profoundly exhausted and I am so unbelievably hungry, but I dpn't have tie to eat much less prepare food. My husband helps the best he can, but he is spacey on a good day (borderline idiot savant -- super smart but very bad at paying attention to mundane things, has done things like I say please change the baby and he put the clean clothes on the baby on TOP of the dirty clothes. He will feed them whenever I ask, but he forgets who got what, who pooped and who didn't, etc., and has to also work and go to school and take care of the middle 2 kids (6 yo, 2 yo). He will bring me food, but all he can think to cook is eggs or chicken. So, I eat that and get protein poisoning (breath smells like ammonia) so I start refusing that food, but he doesn't know what else to offer.
So, I guess my question is this - -are they EVER going to be stronger suckers? Can I recover my milk supply or is it just too late? I am so tired and sad, and the thought of not being able to eventually exclusively nurse them makes me terribly sad.
Is this still possible?