Honey, I'm so sorry!
This is my 3rd baby and I've had a freak out with each pregnancy around this time (I'm 36 weeks). My baby is breech and I'm scheduled for an external cephalic version tomorrow. My DH couldn't get off work to come with me so I freaked out the other night when I realized I'll be there all alone (I asked my Mom to watch my kids) and if something were to happen and I was rushed in for an emergency c-section, I'd be alone and what if my baby was out before anyone could get there and had no one to hold him/her?
I had a mild panic attack.... I realize that A. It is VERY rare for an ECV to cause enough trauma that the baby needs to be out right away and B. My DH's work is 5 minutes from the hospital I'll be at so it wouldn't take him very long to get there. However, pregnancy freak outs aren't about logic, are they? They're about emotion and hormones and SO many things we carry around every day but don't necessarily let ourselves think about or face.
You're NOT alone! And remember that you're beautiful and your body is doing the incredible task of bearing human life! You have every right to be in comfy, paint stained clothes. You will go back to normal and be able to wear your cute stuff again. And SOON! And you'll have your precious baby to hold while looking like a hot mama.
I feel better after sharing this! Maybe we should have a sticky "What I freaked out about today"!