When does it get better???

[Gray's Mommy]

I'm 7 months postpartum from my third son's cesarean birth. I really, really thought I would be on the fast track to healing, but decided the slower path is better for some reason???

I feel like I am overanalyzing his birth, the birth story, my care providers and how my support team was at his delivery. I'm just really angry that my midwife missed him being breech inutero.

I never thought I would be sliced open to have my baby and then miss out on all that good bonding right after...

sometimes birth just sucks

[somelady]

I didn't get better until I was in therapy, with a good therapist. That wasn't until like 14 or 15 months postpartum though. Things got a lot better quickly at that point, though I'm still not 100% (at 22 months). Though I was getting blown off by a lot of people in that time (including my first therapist, if you're in therapy and it's not helping definitely think about trying someone else), so I think the answer is of course it depends.

That didn't come out nearly as helpful as I hoped but will help at least?

[JohnnaW7]

the cost

I am learning that, in this life, everything has a price. The results may be good or bad, but even the good things have can a negative consequence as part of the process. I suppose it is part of what makes this world less attractive and so we look forward to eternity in heaven when our tests here are finished. I can say this much, as a positive. In exchange for all your trials, you have your very precious children to show for it. There is a prize (you children, grandchildren, greatgrandchildren ...) that is worth all of your suffering. Enjoy your children and family all the more, every day, because of all you have been through. They make life worth living, wouldn't you agree?! One final thought. I would rather break my china using it, than dusting it. My body has been through a lot in a short time, but as long as my spirit is in this "china tea cup", I will continue to use it for the Lord.

[A_Random_Phrase]

At first, I was grateful to everyone for saving my life/my baby's life when I had a c/s. It was quite a while later before I came to the stage you are in, when I realized that if I had been allowed to give free reign to my instincts, I would have gotten into the bathtub and had my breech baby there instead of having a homebirth turned c/s.

I really felt the anger when I came across UC and saw how many women were doing what they instinctively felt was right (that was when I realized that my instincts were wanting me to get into the tub, but I was told I shouldn't do that). Birthing From Within (can't remember the author's name) really helped. So did meditating, a reiki emotional release experience. There are several things out there that can help you deal with this. Writing your feelings. Drawing your feelings. Vivid visualization of what you really wanted, I've been told, can help - it's a rewriting history of sorts.

It definitely sucks to enter labor thinking you're going to have a home birth and it ends up c-section.