I have a lot of fear, but not as much as I thought I would. I had a partial placenta abruption with DD, that was recurring. The chances are only 20% that it will happen again this pregnancy, but since I had quite a bit of spotting from weeks 5-7 (+ implantation spotting @ 3 wks) I am nervous about it. That's how it started last time, leading up to me almost losing my DD at 18 weeks. And then I had to be induced at the end of my pregnancy (they were worried about placenta function), which really made me feel out of control. DD had to spend a couple of days in the NICU with an "infection" (never proven) and had trouble breathing. I don't know if her problems were due to the induction, and not being ready, or if they had to do with the placenta problems. At the end though, she's fine. Completely healthy and bright. I do feel a doppler is a great tool for me, because it was the one thing that reassured me my DD was fine when the docs suspected I might have lost her. I got off the phone with the doctor, and was immediately able to find her heart beating away.
BUT I do feel that my body really let me down. I was only 21 when she was born, I can't believe I had such a difficult pregnancy. I've always been very healthy. But pregnancy is scary for me.
I'm really working on trusting myself to get through this pregnancy without any major problems. I've been sort of talking to myself about it. Telling myself I believe I can do this, etc. I'm not there yet- but hopefully I will get there.