I am feeling like the worst mother ever. I have had my hours reduced at work and can no longer afford to have them reduced. I called the Dr and told them I needed to be released back to my regualr shifts, they HIGHLY reccomended I not do it. I have 5 kids and am our only income. I essentially found myself literally saying I had no choice and I had to take the risk to feed my family. What kind of mother does that? I already am SICK about not having the money to buy this baby what he needs. I am finding myself detatching from him and I just feel as though I might not be able to do this. I feel like I am being selfish bringing another child into our family when I am struggling to pay for the ones I have now. Why should Riley suffer? I am feeling overwhelmed and very depressed....worthless to be honest. After YEARS of infertility why in the world has this little boy been handed to us at such a horrible time in our life?
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9/29/10 at 2:23am