30-something mamas TTC #2 or more - October - Page 4

[Tulpen88]

Small amt of brown spotting last night & some red spotting this morning. If things continue like normal, I'm guessing AF will be showing in the next 2-3 days. Nice.

My friend's baby has pink eye, so I won't be going to hold the newborn today. Instead I'm meeting my mom to go shopping. I might fill her in on everything we've been going through with TTC. I haven't told her anything, but I just don't know if I can keep it from my mom anymore.

[Mama~Love]

Serena - hope you O soon! I'm very excited about our sexfest to start soon! The Clomid isn't too bad, I get a bit bitchy on it, short tempered, but otherwise it's OK.

Callie - lots of 's! I think it would do you good to tell your mom what's going on. Do you think she'll be supportive? I know my mom wouldn't be, as she was pretty grossed out when I told her about my baby dying a few weks beforehand. She had such a look of disgust on her face, I'll never forget that. It hurt, really bad.

[Tulpen88]

Myorianna - Happy birthday to your daughter! That's so exciting. I hope you were able to have some alone time with your DH despite all the guests and festivities.

Emma - Welcome to the 2ww! for you! Yeah, I think it's fine to diet while TTC, as long as you're just eating well and exercising. It never hurts to eat better and any weight you can lose before getting pregnant would be good for you. I really need to lose 15-20 lbs. I've gained almost all of it since we started TTC.

EllyMay - Yikes, so sorry about the Fibromyalgia. What a tough diagnosis. At least you have a diagnosis though. I hope you can find some good solutions for handling fibromyalgia while TTC and during pregnancy.

Serena - Happy Thanksgiving! I hope you have a great time. So sorry about your DS having croup. My son had it once and it was awful. I felt so bad for him. I'm glad your son is doing better!

Mollie - I ended up not telling my mom. I just couldn't bear to bring it up or talk about it. We were out shopping, so it wasn't the best environment for it anyway. Unfortunately, we're pretty much never together without other family around, so I don't have many opportunities to have long, private talks with her. I don't care if she tells my dad what's going on, but I don't particularly want to talk to him about it, KWIM? I'm so sorry you felt so unsupported by your mom after your loss.

AFM - Still spotting, but still trying not to give up hope, as usual. Sometimes I wish I could beat up the eternal optimist in me. Why does my brain always insist "there could still be a chance!" when realistically I know that the odds are slim that I'll be getting a BFP this cycle? I wish I could learn to be a pessimist with the whole TTC journey. It's just not who I am though.

Today I started wondering what is wrong with me. There has to be some sort of explanation for all the spotting. There must be a reason why we've been TTC for 10 cycles now and haven't gotten pregnant. It just doesn't make sense.

My RE appt is in 1 week. I wish I could go in next week and walk out with an answer, but I know it doesn't work that way. I just want to know what's wrong. I want to know WHY I'm not getting pregnant.

[Mama~Love]

Callie, lots of s!! I hope you do get answers at your RE appointment! There HAS to be a reason why this is happening, it doesn't make sense to me either. Maybe your appt. will be the first step to figure out what's wrong .

I wish I could see a RE, I know there's something else wrong with me, and no one cares. The OB I'm seeing now is OK, but I think he's getting frustrated with me or something. I've thought about calling & seeing if he could set up a referral to a RE. I don't even know where the nearest one is.

I think I'm having issues with my thyroid. I have a lot of hypothyroid symptoms, but I've been checked, and my labs are "withink normal", but I still have the symptoms. I wish someone would listen to me, let me try thyroid meds for awhile to see if it helps with my symptoms, instead of just brushing me off.

[callieollie]

Callie, I think we are following the same path. My period started today so I'm on to cycle #10. My temp dropped this morning and I kept trying to be hopeful ("It's not THAT low, maybe it'll go up tomorrow and I'll find out I'm pregnant!") but no, AF showed up an hour later.

I'm also going to see my doctor next week too, on Tuesday. I just finished giving huge amounts of blood this past cycle. I gave blood every other day from day 7 of my cycle until AF started to get readings on my estrogen and progesterone throughout the cycle. I am so hoping for answers but I just have this feeling I'm going to go in and they will say "everything looks fine" and then I'll still have no answers. I've been seeing a specialist in NFP who trained me on charting to detect issues and after 3 months of that charting, the conclusion was that my charts look fine and nothing is raising a red flag. So I'm very afraid that the same thing is going to be said at the appointment next week. But I keep telling myself that it was very thorough blood work and it's bound to provide some information. Then I go to the fear of, "what if there is something wrong that can't be fixed?" I just cant wait until next Tuesday to at least hear something!

[tjjazzy]

Originally Posted by Tulpen88

I might fill her in on everything we've been going through with TTC. I haven't told her anything, but I just don't know if I can keep it from my mom anymore.

talking it out with your mom might make you feel better. sometimes our moms know just what to say...

[Tulpen88]

CD1. Monday can't get here fast enough. I can't wait to see the RE.

[Mama~Love]

I'm sorry Callie .

[emski4379]

callieollie-Hugs. Sounds very stressful. For the sake of your sanity, I hope they can provide you with some answers.

Tulpen88-Hugs Callie. I hate CD1.

AFM-4dpo, nothing exciting to report. I did have more EWCM this month though, and we did A LOT more BDing, so hopefully they work!

[heavensearth]

Callie, s im sorry! but im so excited for your appointment! you're right about not getting results that day, but you should have them by the next week! so hopefully by the next cycle you'll know whats up
Did you end up talking to your mom?

Mollie, glad to hear that the Clomid wasn't too bad for you! I had a really hard time on it the last two rounds... same with the Metformin! ugh, but its worth it.
Have you thought about finding a different OB? my obgyn (he's a high risk one) is the one who first tested us and gave us our fertility meds. He's been amazing for us! We've got faster results with him that our friends who have gone through our local fertility clinic.

callieollie, that is a huge amount of blood work!!! good on your dr for wanting it done. I don't think there is ever anything that can't be fixed when it comes to babies. One couple we know was told that they would have to use donor eggs for IVF, she started getting acupuncture done and all of a sudden her eggs were perfect! she has twins now another couple we are friends with were told that its medically impossible for them to have children because they both have a chromosome abnormality.. they have a daughter now!

AFM: im 3 dpo today... this cycle I used OPK's twice a day from CD16 on. I only had 1 positive OPK (unlike the 3 last month) and I O'd two days earlier on CD19! I have high high hopes for this cycle!

[Tulpen88]

Well, I think it's going to be CD1, but I'm not sure. See, this is part of the problem with my body! I'll have a large amount of red blood, I think it's my period starting, and then it turns into spotting or stops altogether. I just don't get it. Oh well.

Serena - How was your Thanksgiving? I'm glad you O'd earlier & you're feeling hopeful! No, I didn't talk to my mom. I just didn't feel like talking about it.

Emma - Do you mean you're 4 dpo? for you!

[emski4379]

Callie-Oops! Yes, 4dpo. I get not talking to your mom about it. I try not to discuss TTC too much with my mom either. I love her, but it's just too hard to talk about.

Mollie-I'm sure your DH is looking forward to sexfest too!

[callieollie]

Thanks, Serena, that helped. We wouldn't do any sort of IUI or IVF or anything so I've been worried that they'll be less they can do so it helps to hear stories like that and see that anything is possible!

[myorianna]

Callie - Sorry about the spotting. s Let us know how the appointment goes! Good luck talking with your mom - I am sure you will find the right moment...

Serena & Emma - for this cycle for you, sounds promising!

Callieollie - Good luck on hearing your results - its nice that you will get some answers hopefully.

Mollie - s Maybe you should go with your instincts and either try to get a referral or get another opinion. You know your body better than anyone else.

EllyMay - I don't know much about Fibromylagia. Sounds like you are exploring all options including alternative treatments - thats great. Hugs to you!

AFM - Got a dark +OPK yesterday, so I may have lucked out on O being later...so we most likely didn't miss our window-yey! Waiting for some higher temps to confirm O being today or last night. I am hoping the acupuncture this month did something other than just drop my baseline temp down by 0.6!
Oh, and I am starting yoga tomorrow once a week during lunch break to try and help the stress - there is a community class offered at a discount. I hope I don't look like a fool as I really don't know much about it

The birthday weekend went great - my sister and I baked some duck cupcakes for DD's preschool class, and it was amazing watching 15 kids stay quiet for 15min eating them up. I think she had like 3 parties total - one mini one at the preschool, one in the weekend morning for her/my friends and one in the afternoon for family. I will be cleaning up the mess for the rest of the week!

[Tulpen88]

myorianna - I'm glad the birthday weekend went well! The duck cupcakes sound cute! Yay for the +OPK! for you. Oh, and don't worry about how you look in your yoga class! I'm sure there will be plenty of beginners in there, and the instructor will help you out. Yoga is a pretty self-centered activity, so you should just focus on yourself and not worry about anyone else anyway.

callieollie - Do you have to wait until next Tuesday to get the results of your bloodwork? I hear you on the fear of having unexplained infertility. I worry about the same thing. It would be so much easier to know what is wrong and to know what needs to be done to fix it.

Mollie - I think you should call your doctor today and find out about getting a referral to an RE. You have every right to see a specialist! You deserve answers too.

AFM - Yesterday ended up being more spotting and not AF. And so far today, I'm spotting again. I tested and got a BFN.

I need to vent real quick... so my friend that I visited over the weekend is pregnant, right? And she had forgotten to tell me that another friend of ours is pregnant and due in a few days... and of course she got pregnant on the 1st try. Then my friend emailed me on Monday to tell me that after I left on Saturday, her BIL called to tell them that he & his wife are expecting too. Then, a girl I know from playdates just announced yesterday that she's pregnant. And just now on Facebook, a friend of mine from HS just announced her pregnancy. Why, why, why, why, WHY can't I get pregnant? I just don't understand.

[Mama~Love]

Ugh, Callie, I feel your frustration! It's not fair at all, to any of us. I hope you get answers on Monday . My supervisor announced a coworker's baby's birth last night, luckily it was right before break time, so I went to my van & cried.

At least we will know just how special and precious our babies will be when we have them!

AFM, CD 11, and EWCM is starting, typical for about a week before I O. Haven't had a chance to start sexfest yet, but I'm wanting to! Gotta give DH some teasers or something!

[emski4379]

Oh Callie, I so understand. It's not as bad this time, but last time I was TTC I did everything possible to avoid hearing about other pregnancies or see pregnant women. Every time I did it just made me cry. Unexplained fertility has always been a fear of mine. You will one day be holding that precious baby in your arms. It'll happen.

Mollie-Any update on the RE appointment? Were you able to get a refferal?

[callieollie]

Callie, that is so hard! I feel surrounded by pregnant people and newborn babies too. I haven't shared with people that we're ttc either so I feel like I'm going through some of this alone. My sister is experiencing infertility now too and I just feel like my difficulties now don't compare to hers (she's 37, doesn't have children, has been trying for a year and a half and found out she has severe endometriosis, a blocked tube, and a dh with sperm that swims in circles. She wants to do IVF but he isn't sure so they are just waiting until they can decide on something). So, I feel like I can't mention anything to her because it would just be insensitive since I already have 2 kids and she's been trying for longer, etc....

Anyway, sorry for the vent. To answer your question, yes, I will be getting the results of my bloodwork on Tuesday. I am guessing if there is nothing wrong, they might look into looking to see if I have a blocked tube or something like that but I'm not sure. i guess i'll find out on Tuesday based on what they say.

[myorianna]

s Callie - We can all relate! I am surrounded by pregnant women at my work, and everywhere... Even at DD's b-day, one of the mommies is due in 6 weeks, and the other had a newborn along.

Callieollie - That sounds like a tough situation with your sister. Still, I know you think its insensitive, but maybe sharing in the fact you are TTC together may add support to both of you, regardless of how long she's been trying, etc. You may be surprised.

Mollie - Go, go, go sexfest! Oh, and call your OB to get that referral!

[Mama~Love]

Ugh, still no sexfest, I don't know what's wrong with DH. I come home early from work & everything, DD is still up, he's sleeping in his chair. I'm getting so frustrated again!

And WTF is this spotting about now??? I had some yesterday, and now today again. AF has been gone 4-5 days now, I'm having EWCM, and the spotting. I don't know if this is related, but I've been having O-like pains ever since AF. I thought it might be because of the Clomid, but I don't know, since it started before Clomid.

I haven't called for the referral yet, I will today.