I''m doing my best not to feel overwhelmed or upset and would love anyone's info. re: VBAC'ing w/an anterior placenta - esp. w/a classical or T incision...
After much, much research, I was adamant that I would never had an automatic repeat cesarean - had found and hired a wonderful homebirth midwife and felt at peace for the first time in my pregnancy.
We had our 20 week ultrasound last week/only one and found out that baby looks great (YAY) - but that the placenta is anterior. The radiologist actually said "see - your cesarean scar is down here and the placenta's up here." (as in "no worries".) Somehow that was all my brain let register then as I was still taking in all the "healthy baby" info as well. Only later did I think/realize that of course she didn't know that I had a "T" incision from my cesarean - so my scar goes up up vertically as well.
After I let my midwife know about the anterior placenta and thoughts back and forth - she let me know today that she's not comfortable with the T incision and anterior placenta/that it's out of her scope of experience, etc. I understand/respect her position - but am extremely daunted to be at square 1 and feel all the uncertainty again. My thinking now is that the "hope" is to have another/later ultrasound to see where the placenta ends up as the uterus expands/how far away from my scar. Regardless, I'm completely without care now and need to restart that search - and am terrified that I'll have to hear "no" and then try to fight a hospital system.
My cesarean 5 years ago was a "scarring" experience in every way. I went into labor naturally - had long, HARD all-in-my-back labor,/no pain meds and had started pushing - when they realized my son was breech and did an emergency cesarean. From hours of feeling pain in order to have a natural birth - to unconscious delivery. Five years and one beautiful growing boy later and the pain is no less. Birth matters - and I know it - so I have every intention of VBAC'ing if I feel the risks of it are reasonable - of course would not be cavalier w/my safety as an already-Mom or the safety of our new baby. That said - I know the struggle to find the right provider is crucial - and I'm daunted about restarting the task.
Does anyone know if they can actually see/tell scar tissue on u/s??? I'm concerned that I have my records but have never seen the measurment anywhere - so I'm hoping it's actually "visible" and we'll be able to have confirmation that the placenta is not near/on it.
Also - ANY provider referral re: VBAC'ing w/vertical scars or anterior placentas would be GREAT - I'm in central MA.
Sorry to be so long - I'm trying to step back and get over my emotions of possibly losing my VBAC way before labor's even an issue.... Right now I keep thinking if the placenta's way away from the scar it shouldn't be an issue...RIGHT? If I'm right I guess my work (again) is finding someone who sees it the way I do and has the experience and comfort level to support me.
If anyone has ANY input for my frenzied fragile nerves and heart, it would be MUCH appreciated!!!
After much, much research, I was adamant that I would never had an automatic repeat cesarean - had found and hired a wonderful homebirth midwife and felt at peace for the first time in my pregnancy.
We had our 20 week ultrasound last week/only one and found out that baby looks great (YAY) - but that the placenta is anterior. The radiologist actually said "see - your cesarean scar is down here and the placenta's up here." (as in "no worries".) Somehow that was all my brain let register then as I was still taking in all the "healthy baby" info as well. Only later did I think/realize that of course she didn't know that I had a "T" incision from my cesarean - so my scar goes up up vertically as well.
After I let my midwife know about the anterior placenta and thoughts back and forth - she let me know today that she's not comfortable with the T incision and anterior placenta/that it's out of her scope of experience, etc. I understand/respect her position - but am extremely daunted to be at square 1 and feel all the uncertainty again. My thinking now is that the "hope" is to have another/later ultrasound to see where the placenta ends up as the uterus expands/how far away from my scar. Regardless, I'm completely without care now and need to restart that search - and am terrified that I'll have to hear "no" and then try to fight a hospital system.
My cesarean 5 years ago was a "scarring" experience in every way. I went into labor naturally - had long, HARD all-in-my-back labor,/no pain meds and had started pushing - when they realized my son was breech and did an emergency cesarean. From hours of feeling pain in order to have a natural birth - to unconscious delivery. Five years and one beautiful growing boy later and the pain is no less. Birth matters - and I know it - so I have every intention of VBAC'ing if I feel the risks of it are reasonable - of course would not be cavalier w/my safety as an already-Mom or the safety of our new baby. That said - I know the struggle to find the right provider is crucial - and I'm daunted about restarting the task.
Does anyone know if they can actually see/tell scar tissue on u/s??? I'm concerned that I have my records but have never seen the measurment anywhere - so I'm hoping it's actually "visible" and we'll be able to have confirmation that the placenta is not near/on it.
Also - ANY provider referral re: VBAC'ing w/vertical scars or anterior placentas would be GREAT - I'm in central MA.
Sorry to be so long - I'm trying to step back and get over my emotions of possibly losing my VBAC way before labor's even an issue.... Right now I keep thinking if the placenta's way away from the scar it shouldn't be an issue...RIGHT? If I'm right I guess my work (again) is finding someone who sees it the way I do and has the experience and comfort level to support me.
If anyone has ANY input for my frenzied fragile nerves and heart, it would be MUCH appreciated!!!












