I really think the experience of being an only child, or one of many, all depends onthe family life. I've heard of some people who didn't enjoy growing up with many siblings (although most people who had a lot of brothers and sisters seem to regard it as a positive experience), and some only children who loved being only children (although, again, I seem to hear a lot of only children say that they wished they could have had a sibling). In the end, if the house is a joyful house, the kid(s) will have a happy childhood, regardless of family size, financial situation, etc. If the house is full of tension and stress and anger, it doesn't matter what the family size is, it's going to suck.
We are trying to have a joyful home full of children

In other news, I found out my pooping problem has a name- rectocele. My rectum wall is protruding into my vaginal area. I might have a cystocele too (bladder protruding). When I push during a BM there is so much pressure in my perineal (sp) area that I have started putting my hand down there to counter the pressure. NO FUN. It's also making having a BM difficult because the stool no longer has a "straight shot" to get out. Ugh.
One other thing bugging me. I had my 21 wk u/s. I know weight estimates, espcially this early, are most likely not accurate. Even my OB said that. But the u/s estimate said she was 15 oz already. That seems large to me for 20wks 5 days (and I know my dates are right). It freaks me out because my last baby was big and the u/s was right about him.
I feel like everything is going in the wrong direction for my VBAC. It's a feeling that I hope will pass.
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