It's been a crazy 36 hours since finding out that my mws will stop delivering in my hospital right when I'm due. (Most calculators say 12/20, but my mws say 12/22. They're delivering up to 12/20)
My options for alternate "acceptable" care providers are extremely limited *IF* any of them even have any openings for a holiday-time delivery at this point. Being the weekend, I haven't been able to find out yet.
I have major trust issues when it comes to pregnancy and delivery. After being with my mws for nearly 8 years, 2 babies, and various other issues, I can't imagine trusting anyone but these women.
FWIW, I have ruled out a planned homebirth due to our location, not desire.
I emailed one of the mws this morning, asking for advice. She responded, asking if I was open to induction before they leave.
Generally speaking, I'm opposed to non-medically-necessary inductions, period. The idea of an early induction obviously goes against that. However, birthing with a stranger is something that terrifies me.
Medically speaking, I don't believe that induction poses as high a risk for me as it may for others. My first two babies were induced with OBs (40w- born 40w1d, and 41w) and went well, as far as inductions go. My 3rd was completely natural at 40w1d with these mws. With my 4th, I pushed for an induction at 42w on a gut instinct. While they did do it, my mws worked really hard to talk me out of it, so it's very strange to hear it suggested, particularly pre-dates.
Half of me is screaming to accept the induction. I've experienced it before, I've vaginally delivered all 4 babies, I'd have providers I believe in and trust with my life and my babies' lives, and (less importantly, but still) I'd avoid weather and holiday complications, as well as being able to make solid childcare plans for the other kids, and even plans for my pets.
The other half of me knows there are still risks. None of my kids has been born before their EDD. My induction with #4 was scary, and we'll never TRULY know if the induction contributed to that, or if it was just his cord issues. And I'll almost definitely be hooked up to an IV pole at the very least (though they'd still allow me to have a water birth if all else goes well.)
Unless I'm faced with an emergency, there is no other hospital that I'm willing to deliver in. If I can find an available provider, I'll have less than 11 weeks to form a relationship with them, and dh and I are both worried that I still won't have complete confidence in them at delivery. He's especially worried that I'll flip out and demand he hunt down my midwives to catch our baby in the parking lot. While that made me laugh, I can imagine it happening!
I'm just absolutely sick over this whole situation, and I can't seem to think straight!
Any GENTLE thoughts?
My options for alternate "acceptable" care providers are extremely limited *IF* any of them even have any openings for a holiday-time delivery at this point. Being the weekend, I haven't been able to find out yet.
I have major trust issues when it comes to pregnancy and delivery. After being with my mws for nearly 8 years, 2 babies, and various other issues, I can't imagine trusting anyone but these women.
FWIW, I have ruled out a planned homebirth due to our location, not desire.
I emailed one of the mws this morning, asking for advice. She responded, asking if I was open to induction before they leave.
Generally speaking, I'm opposed to non-medically-necessary inductions, period. The idea of an early induction obviously goes against that. However, birthing with a stranger is something that terrifies me.
Medically speaking, I don't believe that induction poses as high a risk for me as it may for others. My first two babies were induced with OBs (40w- born 40w1d, and 41w) and went well, as far as inductions go. My 3rd was completely natural at 40w1d with these mws. With my 4th, I pushed for an induction at 42w on a gut instinct. While they did do it, my mws worked really hard to talk me out of it, so it's very strange to hear it suggested, particularly pre-dates.
Half of me is screaming to accept the induction. I've experienced it before, I've vaginally delivered all 4 babies, I'd have providers I believe in and trust with my life and my babies' lives, and (less importantly, but still) I'd avoid weather and holiday complications, as well as being able to make solid childcare plans for the other kids, and even plans for my pets.
The other half of me knows there are still risks. None of my kids has been born before their EDD. My induction with #4 was scary, and we'll never TRULY know if the induction contributed to that, or if it was just his cord issues. And I'll almost definitely be hooked up to an IV pole at the very least (though they'd still allow me to have a water birth if all else goes well.)
Unless I'm faced with an emergency, there is no other hospital that I'm willing to deliver in. If I can find an available provider, I'll have less than 11 weeks to form a relationship with them, and dh and I are both worried that I still won't have complete confidence in them at delivery. He's especially worried that I'll flip out and demand he hunt down my midwives to catch our baby in the parking lot. While that made me laugh, I can imagine it happening!
I'm just absolutely sick over this whole situation, and I can't seem to think straight!
Any GENTLE thoughts?














