I'm young, quite healthy, and have done this before, and expected things to be the same as last time, so I feel like I've been blind-sided by this pregnancy. Last pregnancy I worked 40 hours a week and in addition to that I taught 3 yoga classes a week up till 37 weeks. Sure I had some morning sickness and slept a bit more, but nothing like what I'm going through now
The pregnancy started with very bad morning sickness and fatigue. Bad enough that I went a couple of weeks without leaving the house to avoid throwing up in public. I began getting depressed from the sickness and the food aversions (I'm a food person) and the fatigue.
I'm the type of person that likes to be doing things all the time, going to the gym, taking care of the house, cooking, it's just what makes me feel good. I have no motivation and no energy to do anything at all. I'm not exaggerating when I say that bathing and putting on water for tea feels like a chore now. My poor son has been watching so much netflix, while I sleep. My poor husband has not had any home cooked food for ages (unless of course he cooks it.)
I'm 18 weeks, and I'm wondering if it is going to get any better before the baby comes. I'm generally pretty resilient and don't fall easily into depression, but I am having days where I feel completely depressed and unable to change it. Normally if I feel down I go to the gym, or to the park or make food, and spruce up the house, and it brings me out of it, but now I feel worse after going to the gym, feel the same after taking my son to the park and just have no desire to cook or make my home feel nice.
What is so strange is that even though I am so tired, I have a really hard time sleeping. I feel that I am sleeping so lightly and waking many, many times a night for no reason. My son is finally sleeping through the night, but I get less sleep now then I did when he was still nursing several times a night.
Honestly the only time I feel a little bit OK is when I get a double espresso (I feel a bit of that energy I usually have), or when I'm around friends and my son can play with their kids.
I'm just feeling so done, and I'm only 18 weeks. I was telling my husband last night that I 'miss' myself. He is so supportive which helps a lot, I cannot imagine if I had a husband who gave me a hard time for not being able to do anything.
Thank you for listening, words of encouragement would be appreciated. So would commiseration.
The pregnancy started with very bad morning sickness and fatigue. Bad enough that I went a couple of weeks without leaving the house to avoid throwing up in public. I began getting depressed from the sickness and the food aversions (I'm a food person) and the fatigue.
I'm the type of person that likes to be doing things all the time, going to the gym, taking care of the house, cooking, it's just what makes me feel good. I have no motivation and no energy to do anything at all. I'm not exaggerating when I say that bathing and putting on water for tea feels like a chore now. My poor son has been watching so much netflix, while I sleep. My poor husband has not had any home cooked food for ages (unless of course he cooks it.)
I'm 18 weeks, and I'm wondering if it is going to get any better before the baby comes. I'm generally pretty resilient and don't fall easily into depression, but I am having days where I feel completely depressed and unable to change it. Normally if I feel down I go to the gym, or to the park or make food, and spruce up the house, and it brings me out of it, but now I feel worse after going to the gym, feel the same after taking my son to the park and just have no desire to cook or make my home feel nice.
What is so strange is that even though I am so tired, I have a really hard time sleeping. I feel that I am sleeping so lightly and waking many, many times a night for no reason. My son is finally sleeping through the night, but I get less sleep now then I did when he was still nursing several times a night.
Honestly the only time I feel a little bit OK is when I get a double espresso (I feel a bit of that energy I usually have), or when I'm around friends and my son can play with their kids.
I'm just feeling so done, and I'm only 18 weeks. I was telling my husband last night that I 'miss' myself. He is so supportive which helps a lot, I cannot imagine if I had a husband who gave me a hard time for not being able to do anything.
Thank you for listening, words of encouragement would be appreciated. So would commiseration.
