So, I’m not really new to this, but I have periods of ups and down… and at the moment I am definitely down. So excuse me while I just vent a bit. *sigh*
I’m coming up on 3 years (!) since I lost my little girl. She was my second pregnancy. My second super easy conception. DS was conceived within 2 months. With my girl, I had a fleeting moment with DH, a “let’s just try this ONE time and see what happens!” and boom, I was pregnant!
Then we lost her at 17 weeks… We waited over a year to even think about trying again. I wanted to be completely emotionally good to go. Within a couple of months of actively trying, my clockwork periods went haywire, and to this day (1+year) my body is still just so out of whack!! My longest time without a period during this time has been 5 months!!! I’m not ovulating regularly, if at all.
I saw a RE a few months back and was not at all satisfied with the answers he had, so I just said “screw it” and left is alone for a while. I just needed a break from the stress of thinking about it. But now I am back in the game, so to speak. I just met with my midwife the other day and she’s going to get me started on the path that I feel like I need to be on, which is looking for PCOS, something the RE did not take seriously with me!
Anyway, like I said, I go through ups and downs with this whole thing. I just get so frustrated when I am right in the midst of it. Especially this time of year. I mean, I’m sitting there in the waiting room with all the pregnant women and new moms, and I’m there to find out why I am broken
This time 3 years ago *I* was one of them too… sitting in that same waiting room, getting ready to hear my daughter’s heartbeat. And now, well, I am so far from where I want to be.
Not having the answers I need just adds to the incredible frustration I feel.
Anyway… If you’ve made it this far, thanks. I just needed to get that out!
I’m coming up on 3 years (!) since I lost my little girl. She was my second pregnancy. My second super easy conception. DS was conceived within 2 months. With my girl, I had a fleeting moment with DH, a “let’s just try this ONE time and see what happens!” and boom, I was pregnant!
Then we lost her at 17 weeks… We waited over a year to even think about trying again. I wanted to be completely emotionally good to go. Within a couple of months of actively trying, my clockwork periods went haywire, and to this day (1+year) my body is still just so out of whack!! My longest time without a period during this time has been 5 months!!! I’m not ovulating regularly, if at all.
I saw a RE a few months back and was not at all satisfied with the answers he had, so I just said “screw it” and left is alone for a while. I just needed a break from the stress of thinking about it. But now I am back in the game, so to speak. I just met with my midwife the other day and she’s going to get me started on the path that I feel like I need to be on, which is looking for PCOS, something the RE did not take seriously with me!
Anyway, like I said, I go through ups and downs with this whole thing. I just get so frustrated when I am right in the midst of it. Especially this time of year. I mean, I’m sitting there in the waiting room with all the pregnant women and new moms, and I’m there to find out why I am broken
This time 3 years ago *I* was one of them too… sitting in that same waiting room, getting ready to hear my daughter’s heartbeat. And now, well, I am so far from where I want to be.Not having the answers I need just adds to the incredible frustration I feel.
Anyway… If you’ve made it this far, thanks. I just needed to get that out!
Vermillion. It's not fair. It totally 
sucks.
I TOTALLY get this. I'm so sorry hun. 
