Originally Posted by ArtsyHeartsy
Yeah, definitely different, I wouldn't say less bonding because I am doting just as much, but it's still different. She looks almost exactly like her big sister so it's actually a little weird sometimes, especially if she wears something that was dd1's. It's kind of twilight zone-ish.
YES! Dd2 looks almost identical to dd1 and I think that might actually be part of my issue. I think part of me is really missing dd1 being little and my sweet baby (she is 4 now) and I don't know I really cannot put a finger on my exact emotion. I just feel unneeded from this one dd1 never took a bottle this one could care less. Its like everything and nothing all at the same time ya know? I really feel like this time around if something happened to me it wouldn't matter but I know with dd1 that she really needed me ya know?
I think this all started because I was sure that dd2 was going to be born late. I did NOT want to be done being preggers, I was seriously so happy and not miserable at all so going into labor was almost disappointing...isn't that odd?? I remember the midwives telling me during pushing that I would get to see dd soon and I would think..."thats not motivating I really just wanted to still be pregnant thanks." I was not mentally prepared to be in labor or having her, I was just in such shock.
Part of me is wondering too when I started feeling really intensely with dd1, I think I feel sort of guilty to not be baby crazy over dd2 but I also cannot remember when I started feeling that way with dd1, it was a slow build ya know?
argh, I just really wish I could sort out what I am feeling so that I could deal with it and move on. I hate talking to dh about it because I literally cannot describe what I am feeling. Part of it too might be the bfing hormones...gotta love em