Originally Posted by Amatullah0
For now, its not so much the death as it is all of the stress involved around it that is bothering me.
I have to agree with you.
For me, relatives were the hardest part.
My mother died just last Sunday. We have never gotten along and at the time her illness began we were estranged. We were able to mend our fences (as much as could be mended) and then she died. I was there for three weeks watching her deteriorate. I am so grateful that she was able to die at home and she was surrounded by people who loved her. I am also grateful she wasn't in a hospital being taken care of by strangers. It was a horrible way to die but everyone who was there for her during her suffering were great.
But it was the aftermath of it all, the control issues, the greediness and the hypocrisy. All of that turned me into a basket case and I ended up leaving and not staying for the memorial (the planning that went on around it was ridiculous). If I never see those people again, it will be too soon. I don't know if it is something I will ever get over and I have a lot of resentment right now about it.
So yeah...I get what you are saying.