feeling blah.......

[momtoS]

I am pregnant with number three. A surprise. I feel overwhelmed most of the time. I am a SAHM and feel invisible and unimportant most of the time. I do alot of volunteer work for dd1 school, and feel like I won't be able to continue due to the new baby coming in January. I still am nauseous (I had hyperemesis).My pubic sysphsis is separated. I can't even look at baby names and pick one I like. I can't imagine life with three kids....I feel like I will be trapped at home and never be independent....that I will need someone's help just to get out the door. I feel HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE....and I have 16 weeks to go....I want to just stay home so no one sees me. I haven't taken ONE picture this pregnancy....I hate how I look.....I was losing weight when I got pregnant.....and now....I have to wait for what seems like forever.

[MaerynPearl]

nak

welcome to number three. you sound almost just like me 5 months ago.

on the plus side, these feelings are normal.

Ive been blessed, as soon as my little one arrived my SPD disappeared, Ive done almost nothign but eat (but the weight keeps dropping off) and although I still feel invisible stuck at home... we are going out to a BBQ for DHs work this weekend where I might finally meet some other mommies in the area

(Well, I know 3 so far... but only 1 I see regularly)

[Strong Mama]

I will commisereate with you. I feel the same. I have a 17 year old and a 6 year old. I wanted *one* more. I had just lost 95 pounds(took over a year) and was down to 131 when I got pregnant. Now I am almost 190, 5 months with twins. I am HUGE HUGE HUGE. My dh works 60 hours a week+. He just started the job yesterday, so when the twins come, no time off for him other than a few days of unpad time off. I will be alone, with twins. I was going to nursing school. I planned to be pregnant..but I was going to go back to school with just one, my MIL could keep the baby and it would all be fine. Now with two, I am not unloading that on MIL. So I am trapped, for a long time. Even working when the twins start preschool(if I even do public school) will be almost impossible due to twins getting sick, I will have to be home with them, the summer would cost vast amounts of money for childcare, etc. Dh gets to get up every morning, dress up in his nice clothes, and have a life. I meanwhile get to get HUGE, cry constantly because I am depressed about being Huge, and sit around and hurt, ache, feel sick, feel tired, etc. I am already a very insecure person and all this weight does not help. This is #3, and 4 for me. I feel you.

[sewingsparklz]

momtos, when I was preggo with #3, I thought that was it. No more going out during the day by ourselves, no more going anywhere! But I surprisingly was very active once she hit about the 3 month mark. We had a double stroller and if I got the urge, I'd go to the grocery store, or Target, and just roam around. But again, I remember being for sure I'd never go out again!

After #4, too, I was able to do a lot. Not as much as before, because 4 wore me out, but while baby was still in the infant seat I'd do my shopping and such.

Now to be honest, I have so much to do at home that DH always takes me shopping when I need to go, I don't go out by myself, but I do take everybody outside to ride bikes or go on a walk and that has always been something that refreshes me.

Hope this helps!