Today I birthed....
A brick turd.
I'll share some other stuff first, then I'll hit ya with the TMI (with ample warning).
I can't believe we have TWO more babies!!!!
And both were *very* close to my due date! It's very reassuring that both babies seem to be doing wonderfully. I don't know if it's all of these early babies or what, but I keep feeling like this one will come early. ALL of my others came exactly on their due dates - but I just have this feeling. I don't know if it's wishful thinking or just being SO uncomfortable, but I feel it. I just hope it's not until DP gets back on 11/1!
I've come to a decision about our cat. It's horrible, but I don't know what else to do. I came up from the basement today & the STINK of cat piss just overtook me. The cat has FOUR litter boxes, FOUR. And yet she still pees on the carpet. I decided that I'm going to take her to a no-kill shelter or Angel-Cat-Network or something and tell the kids she got out. It's horrible, I'll be a liar and will probably have bad Karma for life, but I don't know what else to do!
I called my close friend and told her my decision (& she was in a wicked mood!) and she said "Good!" but she thought I should just tell the kids we're finding her a new home. My oldest dd has already said that if the cat goes, she goes.
She would never forgive me and I can't even *imagine* the grudge she'd hold and how upset she'd be with me.
My friend said "But you'll have a crawling baby next summer!" and I think it just became part of my insane nesting.
The cat MUST GO. At that moment, it all became clear and I didn't even feel bad about it. But now I'm wondering with all of my emotional instability at the present if I'll do something crazy like feel suddenly overwhelmed with guilt & will have to hunt down the stinking cat and get her back.
I can't just make her an outdoor cat because our neighborhood *just* last month announced that stray (or outdoor) cats will be trapped and picked up by animal control (we have a lot of feral cats here.)
She snuck out a month or so ago & was missing for 5 days before she came back. And she honestly tries like hell to sneak out every time someone opens the door - she even got out last week but only for an hour or so.
Ugh. What do you guys think? Would it be *terribly* wrong if I made sure she went somewhere where they'd find her a home? I have no idea how to find a home for a cat myself when she pees all over the place. But perhaps these people who find homes for cats would find her a farm or something.Nic
, I hate those calf cramps! I'm so nervous that I'm going to get one while DP is away and I won't be able to flex my foot on my own! I know magnesium helps me with them.Catie
- I came close to your experience this morning!
***TMI*** alert, consider yourselves warned. Poop talk ahead.
So yesterday I didn't have a great #2, I was clearly getting a little constipated. This morning I felt like I had to go and I sat there and nothing happened. So I took some magnesium, just a little. Then about an hour or two later, I felt like I had to go for sure. So I sat down (thank goddess I keep a good book in the loo) & nothing happened, but I still felt like I had to go. While I was sitting there trying to birth this brick out of my ass, I decided to check my cervix. It's very thin and definitely dilated, but I couldn't tell how much. I could feel uh, something hard on the other side (poop, not baby) & then I REALLY felt like I had to go. Suddenly it was like I was in labor and couldn't stop pushing! I was so freaked out that I *was* in labor & that I was pushing the baby out!! After a few minutes of this, I FINALLY birthed my sh*t-brick that wasn't a baby.
it was so scary that I immediately went to the kitchen & took a crapload of magnesium just for good measure.
Then I went out to run some errands with the two younger ones. I just felt kind of "off." I think I felt a bit off before the bathroom shenanigans, but I'm not sure. Anyway, I felt very contract-y and lots of pressure, but I chalked it up to THE POOP.
We got to the store and I had a *whopper* of a contraction and my undies were a bit damp (I lose my mucous plug every day, it seems.) And the contraction just went on and on and on. The kids wanted to stop in to Trader Joe's and I was like "Kids, we might just need to go home." and they b*tched and moaned and I needed to pee (and maybe poop) anyway, so we walked over. I peed there and was kind of freaked out that I might have my baby on the bathroom floor at Trader Joe's. But I made it out of the store, home and got dinner done and have just continued to feel "off."
Oh, but while dinner was cooking, I had some serious yucky poop - I think I just completely cleaned out. Then I ate dinner, farted around online (no pun intended), ate a pomegranate and had some nasty squirts again. I started to worry that having all of this diarrhea might bring on labor. But it DOES feel good to be completely cleaned out, I'll tell you that.
I know I just need to take a normal amount of magnesium every night before bed and things will be fine. But good goddess, is there anything else we need to deal with? Who needs to birth a brick turd just weeks before birthing a real live baby?
So I just talked about poop for at least 2 paragraphs. Anyone else?
**End of TMI Alert**
I found R.'s 15 yr old son on FB this evening. I wonder if it would be weird to send him a friend request? We've never met (he lives in sunny Mexico) and he's never met his step sisters or brother(s). I'm afraid it might be hard for him to see his Dad's "other family." But it might be cool to be able to share pictures & stuff. I guess I should run it by R. first...
Oh, I finally stepped out of my comfort zone and friended Fern today on FB...and then Nic friended me. So if you're friends with Fern and/or Nic and want to be my friend, you can find me on their walls.