Originally Posted by KoalaMommy
I don't think you're crazy to consider the Farm. I'd ask them honestly about your questions. I seriously doubt they transfer many people for pain. They have an extremely low transfer rate, under 5% I think.
Thanks. :) I know, it seems like *the* perfect place in terms of great MWs, care, etc. My perspective is that I didn't pick the right MW for me the first time around. My innermost expectations of her (that I didn't even realize I had until I was in labor) did not match up at all to the kind of care she provided. (She was competent I think, but just didn't click with me, and that caused issues, aside from the actual medical stuff that happened.) So...it seems like the Farm takes the guesswork out of finding *one* home birth MW who is The One, because they have SUCH experience and such an amazing track record. I think even if that is a lot of boo, at the very least it makes me FEEL better, safer, and I think that will help me relax a little.
As for pain--- I am scared. Like, really, really scared. I will probably post something separate on the birth forum later. But the whole "trust birth" thing makes me a little....I don't know. I am cynical, dry, sarcastic, witty, etc, to begin with, and I had a bad experience with my first birth. So I am not trusting right now, and don't really trust myself or my body. I know that's a bad place to be in, and I am hoping the Farm MWs may be able to help me reach a better level of understanding.