OrangeMoon: yeah, can you post that? i would be interested to see how they handled the fact that many people getting early ultrasounds either 1. have some reason to worry that something is wrong (spotting, cramping, clots, etc) or 2. have a history of loss and need the early reassurance. both of these groups seem to be at a higher risk for miscarriage in the first place...that seems like it might confound the results--but they might have accounted for that somehow.
in other news, i ended up telling my parents about the pregnancy out of sheer desperation: i need some medications shipped from the US to help deal with the nausea as they aren't available here in peru. i phrased it as "i really did not want to share this with you yet, as it is so early, but...".
when i go online today, i find out that my parents told a bunch of my relatives as well and i'm starting to get 'congratulations' messages on facebook. i am totally NOT ready to be public about this pregnancy, not with people like my extended family or acquaintences on facebook...i haven't even made it past 9 weeks, which was when i lost the last baby two months ago! i had told them to not tell anyone, but the cat is totally out of the bag--my family is really gossipy.
i was furious, bawling, horribly angry...and embarrassed because with my first kid, i was a young mother (19) and there is a lot of shame around that. i'm older now and this pregnancy was very much planned and wanted, but still unemployed and looking for a permanent place to live and definitely not "stable". i feel confident that i'll pull it all together in the next few months, i have a graduate degree in a good profession--but i am not ready to answer questions to my friends/family about my plans for the future, my job situation, my money, etc...brings up wayyy too many bad memories of my first pregnancy, during which i was very depressed.
ok, vent over. the combination of all these feelings: the loss, the memories of my last pregnancy, the sense that i have to be public with this when i am not ready to do that...it's been overwhelming today.