Me...dragging my feet along...hoping...for...relief.
Can I vent? Everything is so hard right now. Now, I don't have money, health, or marital problems, so that is good. But the nausea makes me so AARRGGHH! It's like I don't a have a reason to get up in the morning and I actually dread my days. Mainly b/c of the nausea. I'm a stay at home, homeschooling mom, and lately the children have been getting on my nerves! (Which, to be fair, are strung out because of the weeks of feeling like CRAP.) It's like I have to fight just to get through everyday. My oldest usually has a bad attitude whenever I sit down with him to do his lessons. My youngest just turned two, so he and the 4 year old girl are constantly interrupting when I do manage to get into a lesson. Then there are the toys left in the walkway that I constantly
remind them to pick up. Then the whining before, and during mealtime....Then I have to eat all the time
. I've gained 7 pounds already (at 12 weeks). I have a tendency to get really fat during my pregnancies and I am NOT looking forward to it! I had the plan to eat better and not over
eat, but the nausea has thrown that out the window. (Forgive me if you've read me ranting about any of this before - I seem to be a broken record lately.) So when I look in the mirror now I can already see my neck just under my jawline getting thicker. Like a double chin. I DO NOT want to look at that (and that getting bigger) for the rest of this pregnancy!
So anyway. All this, in my summation, is because of the nausea. It has taken away my quality of life. I am usually a very upbeat, orderly person who runs her household well. I usually can do my homeschool day with order and on a schedule. I usually can deal with my children without them getting to me (and they really are good kids, despite my complaints). I usually get to get out of the house
sometimes, which provides some interest to life, no? I feel like a prisoner in this stupid, sick body.
So yes, I am counting the days (or months - I usually get better around 20 weeks). Does anyone have a word of encouragement in the meantime? If anyone could understand how I feel, it's sure to be you ladies!
Thanks for at least "listening".