Hi y'all... I haven't been online here since June last year, or thereabouts... but I think I'm back... lol
We decided to start trying for #2 in November 2008, because my contract was finishing the following July. Christmas Eve 2008 (af 2 days late) we had a bfp, then started bleeding on Boxing day (26th). Had 2 more chemical pregnancies, one in Feb 09 and another in March 09, then I decided that I didn't want to do it anymore. Let's just say I've been careful to the point of paranoia since then!!!
This part is going to sound weird, it does to me!! I eventually came to the conclusion that I was a selfish mama, because although I desperately want another baby, I don't want to take time off work because I love what I do, and my DS is so not cut out to be an only child. Anyways, I've been doing some soul-searching and personal self-therapy... and I think I have finally gotten over myself. Luckily now I have a wonderful boss (my last one was an A**), and know that I will be able to take a baby to work, or come to some other arrangement...
ANYWAY, the point is - I feel like CRAP!! To cut a long story short, I got my "mojo" back in a BIG way last (to the point where DH was begging me for a night off! lol)... and now I think about my dates, I think I O'ed last week (which may explain the return of the mojo?), and for the last 3 or 4 days I've been feeling really run down (runny/blocked nose, sore throat, body aches, tired). Even have had small almost-painful twinges in my bbs and lower belly (which I have NOT told DH about!!!). DH is convinced I am UTD, but I really just think it's just the last few weeks at work catching up with me (although his certainty is starting to make me wonder...). DS has also been talking more about babies the last few days as well... WTH!!!!
AF is due next Friday... and I'm going to feel even worse if I've just come on here like this then get a bfp but I didn't know anywhere else I could go to vent anonymously because the other places I frequent online all have some tie to the real world.... lol
I so so so so hope that I see some bfps coming from you ladies!!!
We decided to start trying for #2 in November 2008, because my contract was finishing the following July. Christmas Eve 2008 (af 2 days late) we had a bfp, then started bleeding on Boxing day (26th). Had 2 more chemical pregnancies, one in Feb 09 and another in March 09, then I decided that I didn't want to do it anymore. Let's just say I've been careful to the point of paranoia since then!!!
This part is going to sound weird, it does to me!! I eventually came to the conclusion that I was a selfish mama, because although I desperately want another baby, I don't want to take time off work because I love what I do, and my DS is so not cut out to be an only child. Anyways, I've been doing some soul-searching and personal self-therapy... and I think I have finally gotten over myself. Luckily now I have a wonderful boss (my last one was an A**), and know that I will be able to take a baby to work, or come to some other arrangement...
ANYWAY, the point is - I feel like CRAP!! To cut a long story short, I got my "mojo" back in a BIG way last (to the point where DH was begging me for a night off! lol)... and now I think about my dates, I think I O'ed last week (which may explain the return of the mojo?), and for the last 3 or 4 days I've been feeling really run down (runny/blocked nose, sore throat, body aches, tired). Even have had small almost-painful twinges in my bbs and lower belly (which I have NOT told DH about!!!). DH is convinced I am UTD, but I really just think it's just the last few weeks at work catching up with me (although his certainty is starting to make me wonder...). DS has also been talking more about babies the last few days as well... WTH!!!!
AF is due next Friday... and I'm going to feel even worse if I've just come on here like this then get a bfp but I didn't know anywhere else I could go to vent anonymously because the other places I frequent online all have some tie to the real world.... lol
I so so so so hope that I see some bfps coming from you ladies!!!
