I need some support. As many of you know (
), I am hugely pregnant. I am not taking this change to my body nearly as well this time as last time. I am very insecure and feel like a fugly old woman. I also had a period of about 2-3 weeks where I was hornball central. I think that DH has issues with hurting the baby or me during sex, or something, even though I have told him over and over, and he knows, that isn't something to worry about. We have only had "good" sex once in the last three or four weeks. There have been other times, but he either couldn't or was over way too fast. Normally this would be fine, but with the combination of my poor body image and my high libido, I am taking it really hard.
Then last night I found some discarded porn in the recycle bin of our home (and only) computer. I should have just left it and gotten on with my evening, but I couldn't. I didn't open the images/videos, but I googled one of the names. She was your basic nightmare. Blond, huge boobs, huge lips, porn star makeup. The exact opposite of me.
I told DH that I didn't want to see any of the porn. He asked if I wanted him to delete it, and I said no, which is true. I told him that it makes me feel bad to see it. He said he would delete it all and not download anymore.
Help me get past this. I am seriously so hormonal, I have been crying about this since last night. I keep having to duck into the bathroom at work. People probably think I have the runs. It is ridiculous, right? I usually have no issues with him looking at porn, but right now, I just can't deal with it. How much is too much?
), I am hugely pregnant. I am not taking this change to my body nearly as well this time as last time. I am very insecure and feel like a fugly old woman. I also had a period of about 2-3 weeks where I was hornball central. I think that DH has issues with hurting the baby or me during sex, or something, even though I have told him over and over, and he knows, that isn't something to worry about. We have only had "good" sex once in the last three or four weeks. There have been other times, but he either couldn't or was over way too fast. Normally this would be fine, but with the combination of my poor body image and my high libido, I am taking it really hard.Then last night I found some discarded porn in the recycle bin of our home (and only) computer. I should have just left it and gotten on with my evening, but I couldn't. I didn't open the images/videos, but I googled one of the names. She was your basic nightmare. Blond, huge boobs, huge lips, porn star makeup. The exact opposite of me.
I told DH that I didn't want to see any of the porn. He asked if I wanted him to delete it, and I said no, which is true. I told him that it makes me feel bad to see it. He said he would delete it all and not download anymore.
Help me get past this. I am seriously so hormonal, I have been crying about this since last night. I keep having to duck into the bathroom at work. People probably think I have the runs. It is ridiculous, right? I usually have no issues with him looking at porn, but right now, I just can't deal with it. How much is too much?
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Your reaction and emotions are totally valid and I hope you start feeling like a sexy goddess soon.
) So, my total hornball state (as you put it!) is a big plus to him. Also, I had a similar experience discovering porn on his computer (not even in the trash, LOL) - difference being, they were all women who looked alarmingly like ME - so while I was startled, it didn't hit me in quite the same way. I just so, so feel for you!!! 
I almost want to send my DH over to take your DH out for a "guy talk" about this...
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