[QUOTE=stik;15983613]It's possible to safely birth a baby in the footling or full breech position, although it makes many doctors nervous. However, a c-section is the only physically possible delivery for a baby who is transverse.
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Actually, that's a common misconception. It is possible in some circumstances to turn the baby right up to the end. I was carring transverse and ended up birthing breech in a calm, perfect UA (well assisted by my husband) home birth. My midwife (consulted) was very reassuring.
First of all, I am SOOOO sorry you had such a horrible experience with your previous breech birth! I really wish every woman could have a perfect birth experience. Stories like yours make me SO mad at doctors!!!

You and your baby were in more danger from the way you were mishandled than from the breech birth!!!
Second, you should find a supportive midwife. Search high and low until you find one who can reassure you. I'd even totally recommend going to The Farm, as mentioned before if was even a possibility for you. Your mother is going to need to know, eventually (since you live with her). Mine was not supportive either, but YOU have to fight for the birth experience YOU want. You do need assistance from a professional, though. And it will help you feel much more at ease.
It may be that you will have to "accidentally" birth at home/hotel, etc. Then just go to the ER to be checked out after.
I would also look into the legal reprucussions for your state. It can get pretty scarey if you don't do things the way the medical professionals deem nescesary.
You can contact here or a similar agency for your state...
Pennsylavania Midwives Association c/o Judy Mentzer
4560 Orrstown Rd.
Orrstown, PA 17244
717-530-9366
Also your local ICAN group.
Feel free to PM me if I can help or offer any support.
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