Postive Thoughts Needed :( UPDATE 11/14 now to wait for chromosome testing - Page 5

[madcap150]

I'm so sorry, mama. I know the up and down ride has made things extra hard.

[fjc]

Sorry to hear about the bizarre waiting situation you're in Its so tiring to hold onto the hope when all you need is some concrete answers. I had a m/c this spring - at 10wks I started to bleed and by the time I got into the U/S and heard back from my midwife, it was 4 days. Ugh. My u/s showed a blighted ovum - fertilized egg but no growth I agree with everyone else that it seems weird that they saw a measurable baby and then nothing!
Hugs!!

[sarahmck]

Oh this is so frustrating!!! I can't even imagine how frustrating it must be for you if it's this frustrating for me. I know you must be having major "they screwed up and my baby is really alive" fantasies. I sure was when I had my missed miscarriage but continued to vomit and be ravenously hungry. Mine was really dead but I would sure love it if yours wasn't. I find it so callous that they're treating you in such a casual way, like this isn't a big deal. It *is* a big deal.

I would personally ask for a repeat ultrasound. (Also a repeat beta in a few days so that you can see that the levels are going down.) For me that is what put my fantasies to rest. Once a second person measured it at the same age that the previous person measured it at and also thought it was dead I believed it and stopped imagining all the things that I would say once I found out my baby was still alive, etc. In your case it's just so strange that they can't find anything at all that I know I could never really believe it and that would mean that my body would never let go of it. As it was it took me another three weeks to finally miscarry after I started believing it.

I would also write to the doctor and ask him to explain how it is that your baby could just disappear over the course of a few days. I am really interested to know if that's truly possible or if they're just as incompetent as the stories in your posts always make them sound.

Big hugs to you.

[Buddhamom]

I am so sorry! I was rooting for you and still am! I would demand another check on both!

[swimming-duck]

Kami - I'm so sorry for all that you're going through. I think I would definitely want a follow up us in another week. I don't understand how you could go from a developing baby to nothing. I know you've been bleeding, but you would have to have been bleeding extremely heavily for that to happen. I would also want to recheck the HCG in a few days or so.

I'm hoping for a miracle baby for you still.

[BarefootScientist]

I'm so sorry mama.

And I'm sorry your HCPs are putting you through more pain than necessary.

[~Nikki~]

I'm so sorry. Big hugs. This isn't an easy situation by any means.

[SoCaliMommy]

Thanks girls


sarahmck~ I think i will send off a email asking how that is possible since that is just freaking odd. I've not had any bleeding heavier than i've been noticing and plus if i was really having a m/c i should have had cramping and i haven't had any. I plan on next week sending a email asking for a repeat beta.


swimming-duck~ I'm going to send a email asking how that is possibly, should be interesting to hear that answer since to go to nothing, you need to have lots of bleeding and cramping. i've had no cramping.

[kawa kamuri]

for whatever it's worth, i think you're amazing and are dealing with this in the most graceful, inspiring way possible.

[SoCaliMommy]

Thanks for the compliment. I figure it's not over til i see a beta that is declining and start having cramps. So far neither are happening so i'm holding onto hope that it's just a slow grower.

[rainbow_mandala]

DDCC to say that I'm also hoping they get back to you soon and you get the clarity you need It does seem really odd that the baby could have just disappeared...

[SoCaliMommy]

I got email from the nurse, the dr is out of the office til tomorrow.

[JustVanessa]

I misscaried my first pregnancy at 7 weeks, and I had ZERO cramps. I am hoping for you mama!

[Buddhamom]

Ok, so if you were in labor would she tell you the same thing? There has to be someone who covers for him!

[SoCaliMommy]

It's a big box HMO.If i was in labor i'd go to the hospital and be delivered by whoever was on call. We had this insurance with my son, got whoever is on call at the hospital for delivery.

[swimming-duck]

Originally Posted by SoCaliMommy

Thanks for the compliment. I figure it's not over til i see a beta that is declining and start having cramps. So far neither are happening so i'm holding onto hope that it's just a slow grower.

Sweetie - I DON'T want to be the bearer of bad news, but when I experienced my m/c in 2009 I had no cramps or pain. I just want to let you know that it is possible to have a physically painless m/c. BUT I had super heavy bleeding - lots and lots of clots. From what you've described so far the bleeding has been very mild, right? To my knowledge I'm not sure how a baby could be passed with only mild bleeding. But I'm certainly no expert. I just have my one experience to base things off of.

[lilyrn11]

I'm so sorry about you going through all this frustration and the unknown. I agree that you can have a mc with no bleeding but why wouldn't there be a drop in hcg levels? I hope you get an answer really soon. You seem like such a sweet person and mama from your posts. I am praying for you and your family

[SoCaliMommy]

I just got a phone call from the dr and he said how he thinks it's for sure a miscarriage and to stop the progesterone yet he then made the comment it really could just be to early. and how he suggests getting a appointment set up for next week. I'm just going to call the kaiser near where we are moving to set up a appointment for next week there.

[SoCaliMommy]

I got a appointment at the kaiser near where we are moving for 11/11 at 9:10am yippie and i still have enough progesterone to last til then and a few days after then.

Still thinking + about this roller coaster

[sarahmck]

11/11??? Aargh! That's a whole week of limbo. How horrible for you.